my illness

[mich686]

Ive been having problems from a young age with shyness, obsessions and panic attacks and very bad cold chills in my head. It all started in August when i got sick and had a delusion and thought i was dead and felt i wasnt in my body. I became depersonalised and very depressed. My depression and depersonalisation seem not to go and im wondering what could be wrong with me. Noone can diagnose me

[peachsurprize]

Sounds like you have a mood disorder and dont understand it. I would recommend you try to get a new psychatrist and see if they can give you some of the newer mood stablizers and you definitly sound like talk therapy would help you understand whats wrong with you.  I suggest you NEED A NEW Dr. try  a local hospital mental health ward and ask for a referral to a new Dr in  your region. OR call the local Health dept and tell them you need a new psychatrist or family mental health center. Seems your provider isnt doing for you what you need. Dont be afraid to make your change. You sound like you need the guidance.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

It is certainly that during your illness you have a fever that let your delusion.  Because of your lifelong anxiety and shyness you are predisposed to that kind of depersonalization experience.  I think you would benefit by seeing a therapist and trying to do something about your underlying anxiety and shyness.