My wife passed away on new years day 2005, after a long illness i watched as see got weaker and weaker and finally passed away. problemis here it is 5 years later, andi still weep almost on a daily thing she was my life my everything. i dont really want to go on in this life with her any more i have seen doctors all they tell me is to move on but dont tell me how.....how and why should i on???