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[cmarsmith86]

Sometimes I just get sad and I don't know why, it is usually in the winter time and closer to February(which is when my best friend died in a car wreck). I just get scared sometimes that this depression is going to run my life, I also feel that one day I won't be able to control it and I will snap or go crazy. I am not suicidal, I do not want to die and am not ready to die yet. I just dont understand why I feel like this, like sometimes i get scared that I will just go off the deep end and want to kill myself(which i am hoping never happens). Why do I feel like this? Like I am going to snap and end up being commited or something. I want to be ok and happy, how do I do this?

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

Your comments suggest what is called an anniversary reaction, in this case, an emotional response to your friends sudden death, now transformed into your own sudden "snapping" and loss of control, and loss of the good life you have.  You have some work to do re this death, and the best way to do it is for a few sessions with a good therapist.

[Omusicgame]

hmmm, well it seems that you've got some problems but youve got nothing to worry about.  Just remember every time you feel depressed, you should know that it will pass.  Whenever it happens, or you feel that way, you should know that it will go away.  One thing that is hard about depression is that it messes with you.  Its a terrible terrible disease, that has control of the most important part of you, YOur MInd.   It will make you think differently, but you just got to fight it, and once you get through it, you will grow stronger.  Trust me, I've dealt with it before, and it might be because you might be going through some changes and you don't understand things.  But just be patient, and work hard through the pain.  If it doesn't kill you it will only make you stronger.  You'll look back on it in 10 year from now and wonder why you got that way.

[cmarsmith86]

Thank you so much for your reply. I emailed a psychiatrist for an appointment, the offices were closed today, but I should get a reply soon. Thank you for taking time out to help me

[cmarsmith86]

Thank you so much for your reply. Thats what I did today, I just sat here talked to my friends and told myself that I would be ok. Depression/Anxiety is a horrible disease, but I will conquer through it. Thank you so much for your reply