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[blueeyes4]

Im 15 years old 2 weeks ago my boyfriend died. I'm still in shock and just want him back. I suffer with depression and eating disorders anyway, and since he's gone its all worse, and now im not sleeping properly. Everyones trying to be there for me and watching to make sure im fine and dont do anything stupid. What they dont know is that im carrying his baby, we hadnt talked about keeping it or not as he passed away a week after findng out, now i know for certain im keeping my baby, he's all i have now. I dont know how to tell people, we were gonna do it together. Im sad all the time now and guess i just need someone elses opinion on what to do. Someonevwhose not always watching me cause it feels like im sufforcating. Someone who wont judge me... pleasee...  

[blueeyes4]

Thanks :)

[nursegirl6572]

I'm so sorry for your loss, honey.  There just aren't words that I could say to ease your pain.  I pray that you can go through the grieving process as anyone should.  I STRONGLY recommend therapy.  You HAVE to be able to discuss what's going on (all of it), and your emotions, to someone, and a 3rd party person is a great person for that role.

I know you're scared about the baby, and I understand that completely, but I think you'll be shocked at how much support you will end up getting.  Plus, you need to start getting regular prenatal care if your're going to have your baby, therefore, you MUST find the courage to tell them, and VERY soon.

I wish you the very best, please update us when you can, again, I'm sorry for your loss, it's such a tragedy, so young.  SOME day, MANY years from now, the pain will not be so close to the surface.  It will still be there, but it won't be as intense.

Take care.

[mammo]

Hi....I'm so very sorry for your loss, I'm sure you feel so alone right now.  Be thankful that you have so many that care about you, I know you feel like you're suffocating, but it's much better than having nobody who cares.  You need to get all your ducks in a row first of all.  I'm sure right now your thoughts are all over the board and you're feeling very over-whelmed by it all.  You need to let your parents know you're pregnant and want to keep the baby.  If you feel you can't do this in person then write it in a letter to them, this also gives you the opportunity to express all of your feelings.  Your mom may have your brothers to deal with but she still loves you very much and wants to know what is going on with you.  Over-coming an eating disorder is not easy, I know it's about more than the food.  So, you need to get into therapy to help with this so you can have a healthy baby and remain healthy yourself.  It's one step at a time, so don't over-whelm yourself with trying to do it all at once.  You need to let everyone know you're pregnant and go from there, this will lift a huge burden off your shoulders and allow you to start preparing for your future.  We're always here for you if just to vent.  Keep us posted on how things are going and I wish you all the best.

[blueeyes4]

Thank you for the reply and kind words. My parents aren't always around and don't always listen to what i have to say. I rarely see my dad and my mum has my brothers to deal with. I guess im scared of telling them on my own and i dont really know how to say it... i was on medicaton but got taken off it a few months ago cause i was getting better, i dont know what to do.

[4Maddie44]

Oh I am so very sorry for the loss of your boyfriend.  You are having to bear so very much at the moment.  It is difficult in one so young.  I feel so very sad for you.  To have the grief, eating disorder, depression and a baby, is difficult for someone older, but at 15, it is really so much to deal with.

Are your parents supportive?  Are they the ones who are watching you all the time?  That is understandable as they know how much you are dealing with at the moment.  Will your parents help you to bring up your baby?  You will have to tell them sometime that you are pregnant.

Also you will have to try and eat sensibly if you are pregnant.  I think the sooner you tell your parents, the better.  

We will certainly not judge you here.  Are you on any medications?  If you are, then that is something else you need to address.  

We will support you all we can here, I promise.