13 and depressed....need help!!!

[Whatcanyado]

I have been feeling this way for a while now! I feel completely sad and alone all the time...i feel as though i should just die cos nobody cares!! I often have thoughts of suicide or going asleep and never waking up!! I have self harmed for a while (with a scissors i just need to see blood an its enough no deep wounds but alot of bloody scratches) because i feel like death is the only way out of my misery...but then i thought maybe if i told my mum..we could get help and see if i am depressed but the thing is i am usually cranky (never getting enough sleep cant fall asleep) and we just lost our good relationship! I will talk to her but for lets say family events i will make an excuse not to go!! I dont have any friends...close friends i have acquaintances but not many as when i started high school (secondary school) i started feeling this way and isolated myself from everything! I have lost interest in things that used to matter to me!! I feel like i am not good enough and that i am ugly fat and the list goes on! I cry myself asleep at night (probably an hour or two) and am always tired and have no energy!

I want to be back to my own bubbly self!
Please help

Oh and to my family i am a good child and its just hormones but i think its more!!!

[sara12345]

I hope that you will seek help.  If you can't get help from your family, then see a doctor for anything, then tell the doctor what you just wrote above.  Then the doctor can give you something to help you.  You are definitely worth a whole lot.  And medication can help to get your old self back.  The depression can obscure your perceptions a great deal.  Wish you the very best.  You take care.

[Whatcanyado]

Thank you this has actually given me some sort of notion of what to do!!! I will tell my mum soon (maybe a day or two) and we will get help

Thank you!!

[caringmomma]

I read your post and it honestly brought me to tears because I thought i was reading a post that my daughter would have written.  Everything that you said my daughter is experiencing.  I cannot tell you how important it is that you talk to someone.  It took months before my daughter decided to tell us that she has self harming.  Sometimes it's difficult to think people care about you when you're depressed.  I didn't react all that great when she told me but after I pulled myself together I got her professional help.  It has been a long process but there has been progress made.  I'm not saying that things will get better really fast, so all I can say is be patient and always talk to anyone you trust about how you're feeling.  Although my daughter was getting help, she was not being honest with her therapist or us, she began hearing voices that started controlling her and the self harm became more frequent.  She was hospitalized for a while but after her program she is much more open to communicating with us and we are there trying our best as parents to support her.  Honey, you are worth so much and you deserve to live a happy life.  Life will have it's ups and downs but you must learn to trust people.  Don't ever assume that your mom will not care for you, talk to her.  If she reacts insane at first, understand that we are concerned and don't necessarily know what to say or do.  Expect her to be confused and she could probably blame herself.  Just know that she loves you.  And if she doesn't react like I just described, well that speaks volumes of her character.  With all that said, talk to someone and get help.  You are beautiful and deserve to live a happy life.

[lisa22649]

have you told your doctor?

[Whatcanyado]

Also im afraid of how my parents will react will they treat me any different more like a baby or what?