Can you get with a therapist who you can work with? Someone you can trust? Talking to the right person will really help you. Remember, alcohol is a depressant, so it actually makes you feel worse after you sober up....so you might be making yourself worse. Pot isn't the answer, either, as you've noticed.
Are there any teen support groups that you can go to? Find someone you can talk to - what about counselor at school or church? Do you have a free clinic near you?
I'm sending you a long-distance blessing...
hi..this yougin' is only with her mom. Lots of bad bad stuff. Your right..there isn't a simple answer. she'll be contacting me hopefully again tomarrow. She apparently couldn't be back on tonight. poor girl. My heart is breaking for her.
I know you have probably heard this a thousand times, but I think part of your depression is due to the change your going thru now.
Being a teenager now days is infanitly more difficult in todays world. You are at a point in your life where you are transitioning from childhood to Adulthood and that can be a real ***** for anyone.
As for the cutting.... Do you feel like you do the cutting because it feels like a kind of release from the emotional pain you feel? Obviously this is not healty and what you really need is a good Therapist that you can vistit at least once a week. That way you can release some of that tension thru talk rather than by cutting.
At this point in your life AD medication for your depression is probably not a good idea and is probably why your doctor is hesitant to start you on antidepressant therapy.
For some reason Teens generally do not respond very well to antidepressant medication and it can often make matters worse.
Being 15 and depressed must be very frustrating simply because your too young to take active control of your treatment. You must rely on your parents desicions on what treatment is best for you and this may differ from what you think is best.
When you hit 18 you can then take your treatment in the direction you see fit. Until then you will have to try harder to come to an agreement with your parents about what you really need in terms of treatment.
I'm sorry I can't give you a simple answer to solve your depression. God knows if I could that I wouldn't suffer from it myself. What I can say is that it takes time and you have to want to get better in order to effect any change in your mental health.
It will be ok. I know it is hard to believe that. I too have depression.
It is a battle. You have to keep climbing the hill you can't let yourself fall down that hill.
How long were you in the ward? Doesn't seem like they helped much and what medication you on. Would you consider going back? Have you tried to bring your problems to the attention of family? I know questions, questions, but just trying to get a little background info so I can be more help.