Am I actually depressed or just hormonal?

[MissAthena]

I'm 13 and I just havent been... Normal lately. I yell a lot and I just cry when ever im alone. I dont want to tell my parents that i THINK i'm depressed. I think it will just make things work. My dad is a phsyciatrist and I just dont want to talk to him about it. I was going through my documents on my computer and there was a lot saying "I wish I woulkd just get up the courage to kill myself. I'm just wasting peoples time, and taking up space." I dont know why... but thats how I feel. I have been having physical pain in my side sometimes is that the cause? Please help me.

[Kelz72312]

Well I suffer from depression so I know what it feels like

[RainLover71]

You can't make the statement ''it's just depression'' depression can be extremely serious and if not treated properly well it can lead to suicial thoughts.Some people dig themselves such a whole that they hit rock bottom.Distracting the mind is the key.You need to talk to your dad because it will help you and he has the experience.Don't bottle it all up because you will get nowhere.Meds can be very useful aswell.

[Kelz72312]

It's just depression.. you may need to see a therapist theychelp alot to cause noone is around and you can exspress your feelings to them and they wont judge you and when you feel that way warm up some tea as hot as you like it might taste nasty but it helps and go outside around your house and walk for 2 hours also do something that makes you happy it also helps to if you need me email me ***@****

[MissAthena]

Oops *worse