i'm sorry that you lost your brother. my boyfriends younger brother had committed suicide a year ago. do you stay connected with your family and friends? i think that's the best thing when you're hurting, is to have someone to help you through it. i've had a hard time trying to help my boyfriend through recovery but he's doing alright now. he hasn't gone on any depression drugs or got into drugs and alcohol. if you don't find comfort in talking to friends or family about it maybe you can share your feelings with a therapist. it's best to let everything out. i wish you the best of luck on your road to recovery.
well hopefully a pro will help my situation. i think its getting worse cause now i have to force myself to eat. i wanna eat so bad but when food hits my mouth it feels like im gonna throw up. Its crazy. i love to eat!
Hello & Welcome, Gee where do I start? First of all you are very normal. You have been threw a terrible ordeal. I believe you have handled yourself extremely well, except for the drugs. But you know the drugs will only make things worse so I don't think they will be a problem for you. I really hate to say time heals everything... but it does. It is just so difficult to wait when you hurt so bad. You just want it to stop, and how your heart hurts. I do know your pain, its just I have had more time so now mind is a dull pain. You just keep getting up everyday... even if you don't feel like it, Do things that are positive. Believe in yourself, you have proved you are strong. Keep reaching out to others, they will help. Eventually you will feel better, happiness will come your way again. Then you will see improvement... where you have been and where you are going. Then some day you will help someone else. Hope this helps. Kande