Looping behaviors?

[Newmedic]

Ok so I'm a 31 y/o female with a normal productive place in society but there's this weird thing that I do and have done for as long as I can remember where I'll have a conversation in my head with someone I know (even though its a conversation that I'm not going to have with the person ever) but instead of just in my head I say it out loud and will get stuck on how to say what I'm saying the best way,  that I repeat over and over and it can be word for word or slightly different by I cannot stop until I suddenly am aware of what I'm doing and sometimes that will put a stop to it but sometimes I can go right back to doing it without realizing. It's usually just half in my head and half quietly out loud to myself but sometimes I will find myself talking as loud as I would be normally to somebody nearby. I remember being like 8 or 9 and being aware of this and feeling extremely embarrassed if someone caught me.  Recently I feel like it is getting much worse.  I just on here about something called "looping"  behaviors? The other night when I was driving home I suddenly realized  that I had been doing it for the entire 30 min ride but what freaked me out is that I was talking very loudly but then was truly shocked when I finally did realize it. It's a devastation feeling lie control of it anymore because I don't know when it's h[happening anyone has any kind of insight to what this is I'd love to hear it.

[Paxiled]

Agree with the above -- many of us do this.  One thing you might try just to feel better is to write this stuff down -- that often gets rid of it, and it provides a rich account of what you're thinking.  Who knows, maybe there's a writer inside of you.

[Newmedic]

I totally forgot to say that if I am also not sleeping well. It's  my job. I either sleep all the time or not all,  But if i were being completely honest, i have slept less than 10 hours since waking up Friday (4 days ago).  This is the first time that I have been honest about it..

[breezytoo]

You know don't be too hard on yourself, a lot of the speech inside of your head is just your thoughts, right? Since my son allowed his girlfriend to move into our home I have been listening to her talk to herself. My room is on the other side of the bathroom wall, so I'm not "trying" to hear but just do. At first I thought it was pretty strange like :doesn't she KNOW that I can hear her? Then I guess I got use to it. I think a lot of it is just a bad habit. If you are used to living alone with no one in the house, who cares. One day I decided to let her know that I could hear her, so I said "Who are you talking to?" "Oh! I thought Michael had come home. Well she still does it. If it bothers you too much? See a doctor and see what he thinks, and good luck. Look into relaxzation technics very seriously, it takes practice but it does work and it's fun too.