Highly unlikely, but if you are trying to overdose you need to go immediately to the emergency room. You need to be in a hospital setting until you get stabilized. The fact you're writing on this forum suggests you really don't want to die, so go to the hospital, get stabilized, and then with a psychiatrist figure out a plan to learn what you do want and how you might get there. Good luck and get help now.
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