You should listen to your husband's observations. It's a shame that you are more concerned about taking a medication than your health and your marriage. And yes, therapy might also help you. You take care.
I've been there too. Hated taking antidepressants cos of the stigma attached to it. Felt I should try to do without rather than need it. Of course I did end up needing them.
If you'd rather not take antidepressants, inform your doctor of your decision, as they can cause severe withdrawal symptoms depending on which medication you are taking and how long you have been taking them.
You can also ask him to refer you to a psychotherapist instead for a medication-free alternative. Everyone needs help sometimes.
I'm not sure I understand your question. Are you trying to decide whether or not to start taking the medication again? What AD were you on, and for how long?
For future reference, you never should stop an antidepressant abruptly, it should be tapered off. If you want to resume the medication, you must be sure that you're taking it consistently, not missing doses, and keeping in touch with your doctor. It's never good to take matters into your own hands.
Have you tried any therapy? Therapy is really s must either way, whether you're taking a medication or not.