Had enough

[s_e_a_s]

Today has probably been 1 of the worse days of my life and it's taught me alot, no matter what medication or amount of therapy nothing is going to help me an iv come to terms with it now nothing is helping or has and that's it now iv had enough I am so so so desperate for help but 2day iv lost all hope I'm severely depressed and nothing is goin 2 make it go away I'm living with 2 much heartache I wishd prayed and hoped day in day out it would leave me alone but it won't and it's taken over my life now I won't be happy again and iv give up the fight now it's not a nice place 2 be fighting 2 drag urself through another unhappy day it's sending me Poorly now I have nightmares other things that have happend and the past is catching up with me am 20 in 3 weeks and all I can say is I Dnt Wna b here 4 the next birthday I'm in so much pain an iv appreciated all the support And comments but honest to god it wil help for 5 minutes and I'm back 2 square 1 I have no control over the way I think or feel so trying 2 put a brave face on is 2 hard for me now thanks 4 everyone who has tried helping me tho, this is karma getting me back after all these years no one can stop it

[tsh1986]

You are not alone in feeling these things, things can be terrible and life is hard but you are stronger than all of these things.

Please turn to someone you can trust and don't give up hope.

[mikepvcs]

And for 2 years I had a 2 teeth that were so infected in the back if my mouth that I had a baseball size puss pocket under the skin outside my skull. But no one could tell me what it was for 2 years lol love doctors. My best and really only friend commited suicide last week. I lost my job can't find another. Now I am having heart palpitations daily with a fib I keep getting panic attacks have been for as long as I can remember. I wana work so bad but can't find nothing close to home so im broke behind on everybill I have. I had 2 dogs that I loved she took one and the other got hit by a car. My son just went thru major ear surgery a month ago that he didn't do well with at all. I have one sister that got 5 dui in a month that's locked up now for 10 years. Its freezing in here no heat oil is to darn expensive. Truck will be reposed any day here. Phone will be off. My heart issues is completely running me in the ground. All this but I don't wana die life is to short to give up man. Just gotta think possative and live for today.

[mikepvcs]

Well I can try to help you Let me start by saying this someone always has it worse then you or me or anyone. Here's my story raped as a child from 2 to 10 almost everyday. I have had to stay in the basement for over 2 months at a time while my father was away with rats and bats it was a old farm house. I have had 23 ear surgury and 6 major foot surgurys. I am now 32 I almost died numerous times from starvation when I was younger. I recently lost the only person who ever really cared about me my aunt. Just lost my wife she left cause my anxiety issues. She took my 3 kids with her who are my life and only reason for living. This whole past 2 years I went to 12the different doctors for a pain in my head