Heart Racing, Anger, Agitation, I need help!

[claudetis23]

Can you relate or have you experienced? I feel extremely tired, unmotivated, angry for the last couple of weeks, and today out of no where, my heart started racing, (while I was in class) and I started getting extremely irritable. Anyways during class we went on break and everyone started talking and the noise was so agitating that i felt like punching someone (of course i didn't) and I almost left but didn't. Not sure whats going on? Has anyone had a similar experience or is someone knowledgeable and can help me figure out whats happening? I am home and I feel better ( heart not racing ) still feel tired in my head, yet restless....thanks in advance to anyone who can help me figure this out...

37 female
started taking lexapro 5mg a month ago
was on celexa for 2 years and stopped in Oct 2011, depression came back with suicidal ideation in early Feb. Got on Lexapro in April 2012.
klonopin 1 mg once a day for the last 3 years
ambien 10mg off and on for the last 3 years

[RainLover71]

Hang in there and PM me and we can chat.I know what you mean and I have been there.I found that xanax was good and valium was calming.If you want to chat I'm here.

[claudetis23]

I am taking it again because my depression is at full swing and I cant wait to see my psych doctor. I am angry and I feel like I am in a mental fog. I dont struggle with doing things but I struggle with holding my temper and cursing at every single thing that pisses me off. NOTHING SEEMS TO WORK ANYMORE...FEEL LIKE GIVING UP ON LIFE. I dont feel heat unless I am extremely pissed off.. I hate living

[cath1973]

hi i was on lexapro for over two years and went off it because it was making me more angry..i too get the feeling with too much loud noise...i cant handle it and just want to lash out and scream SHUT THE F UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!! lol  Im on pristique now and finding that isnt helping me much...in actual fact ive always found my different meds not very effective and starting to wonder if my condition is more than depression :(

Im angry all the time and lose it at little things, i cry at everything, im demotivated most days and would sleep the day away if i could, i generally struggle with day to day thingslike cooking and dishes and eerything seems too hard. Is this what you all feel? Sometimes when im having an episode i feel like I have a heat burning inside of me...I hate this feeling :(

[RainLover71]

Yes of course I will pray for you and message me anytime.

[claudetis23]

i forgot to say thank you for responding.

[claudetis23]

Will you pray for me please.

[claudetis23]

Hi 4Maddie44

I stopped taking the lexapro, the irritability is slightly going away the buspar makes me feel dizzy and its a very low dose. I dont want to take the topamax because i feel it dumbs me down. Any recommendations for an anti depressants. I have take effexor 37.5, great but cause severe short term memory problems.

celexa, caused severe mania for months..loved it but i needed to stop takng it.

lexapro made me angry to the point of wanting to severely hurt others.

lamitical- didnt like it cant remember why
was given, risperdal, abilify, geodon, seroguel but i dont them because of the horrible side effects i hear about.

my dx is mood disorder NOS..currently being tested for ADHD..

What should I do?? I am a horrible person, have my priorities messed up. I lost my house and my daughter (17) lives with her dad because i don't have the balls to leave my boyfriend and get an apartment, i haven't worked in 2 years, i have lost all my friends, What should I do?? WHY AM I SO MESSED UP??

sorry for venting but i have no outlets ...thanks to all who responding ..god bless

[4Maddie44]

I meant hurt people not help people, Sorry!!  

[4Maddie44]

I am generally a person with no anger, but one anti-depressant I took made me very aggressive.  I felt like I could help people.  That drug got flushed away.

Are you certain that your feelings are not caused by medication?  That could be the case.  Perhaps you need to talk to a doctor about your feelings.

[claudetis23]

Hi Wotverge,

I saw my psychiatrist today, and I was on Lexapro and my psych doc was surprised that Lexapro didn't work. I was hoping it did but it didn't...my temper was and still out of control, she was going to put me on Remeron but didn't. For some reason she keeps pushing Abilify, i said no because i am afraid of the side effects (TD). I also mentioned I wanted off the Klonopin because it doesn't work for me as i still suffer from anxiety. She said no and added Buspar 5mg twice a day. she started me on a low dose because i am very sensitive to drugs. Gosh I dont know what to do anymore!

[WotVerge]

The newest med is the lexapro. Have you asked the doctor about that? I can't make it through a day without the klonopin and you might need to change to something that works longer term like buspar (I take both - obviously I can relate to wanting to punch someone).

I'd focus on the newest med first before looking at things you've been on over time...

[RainLover71]

You're welcome.

[claudetis23]

thanks you and GOD BLESS!!!

[RainLover71]

Tell them that you think the klonopin has stopped working and that you stopped taking the lexapro.They need to be aware of this.They may introduce a new medication for you to try.Once you find a good balance those symptoms should subside.All the best.

[claudetis23]

Thanks for you input Rain!!

[claudetis23]

I stopped taking the Lexapro and I at this point I no longer think the Klonopin is working. I think I am taking it solely for the purposes of not going through the withdrawal, As you said I have built a tolerance to it, and doubt its working. Any suggestions on what I should explain to my case manager or
psych doc?

[RainLover71]

SHOULDN'T be stopping and starting--that should have read. Sorry.

[RainLover71]

How is the klonopin going? Do you find it's working for you? It's a very strong benzo with the longest half life.Maybe you should be stopping and starting meds,it could be what's causing the problems.Also your benzo usage seems to be very long-term.You may have developed tolerance to them,do they still work for you?