I have been diagnosed with hypertension and depression. I started doing crazy things like sleeping on the side of the road and time lapses. I was told by my previous job that it is affecting my work and they cant keep on carrying me and now its affecting my new job. I have a wife and 2 young children. I was born in south africa and moved to australia. Now I live in england with my english wife and my 2 children. It feels like I am loosing my mind, i want to scream inside. I often try to over dose on my hypertention tablets and i dont want to take my depression tablets because its making me worse. the doctors blows be off and i dont know what to do. I WANT to die and I cant wait till the hypertension kills me. Why am I feeling like this?