I hate my life -- Am I unmotivated or what?

[Polly017]

I'm homeschooled and have 0 real friends. I get around people--I have a job and am in clubs--but I never just hang out with anyone. I get in frequent spats with my mom. She claims I have a "bad attitude." Also whenever I tell her that I hate my life, all she says is "What can you do about that?" Might my problem be lack of motivation? I don't know. Usually I have been good about hiding my hostile moods when we're in public, but it's getting more and more difficult. Finally I have a weight problem. I was anorexic about 4 years ago, but I've been on binges ever since and now desperately need to lose weight, like 15 lbs. Whenever I try to motivate myself it never holds through and I end up depressed again.

[Polly017]

Also I'm supposed to be on certraline 100 mg, but I never take it. I'm also supposed to be on tri-previfem for my acne, but I never take it either. Probably this is just testament to my lack of motivation. On the certraline though, I've been afraid that it has contributed to my weight gain.

[kah_1409]

I think you should take the medications in the right way, I am saying this because I used to don't take it right either. Polly017, maybe you are a little depressed, What do you think about you hang out? Like participating on volunteer work, or other things, it should help you to meet new people and then start to having more friends, maybe a music class, another language class is a good idea too, and if you like, painting or drawing   is a good idea too. If you find a hobbie it will be easier to be happy! and to find people with common interests. And about your weight, I am taking certraline too and I have been afraid too that it has contributed to my weght gain,  but then I have been walking around parks and have been doing exercises at home by youtube classes, what do  you think? :D hope it had been useful!