Hello, i am 15, i used to get bullied a lot in primary school and stuff, now i am near the end of secondary, i have suffered some depression before. For some reason i keep telling myself i want to be happy, but then everytime i feel happy, my brain reminds me of all the upsetting stuff and keeps doing it, it's like a part of me wants to be happy but the other half doesn't want to. Thanks for any reply.