did you get the membership of that christian community. Besides, you can better visit a psychiatrist. You are not alone, you have so many people standing with you to combat your issue.
Although, you should look into getting proffesional help...they are trained to help you!
If you need anyone to talk to, you can always message me. I have been talking to a therapist for a while and I have lots of experience with anxiety and depression....Ive had anxiety since around the age of 2 and I've been in a deep depression for about 5 years or so. I really convinced myself there was no hope of getting better...but recently Ive been able to help myself out a lot and I'm starting to really get better. If you ever need some insight feel free to message me anytime, Id be happy to talk to you