You have heard this before I'm sure josh,suicide is never the answer no matter how bad it gets because it don't solve anything and the people left behind,especially family will be suffering for the rest of their lives,you don't want that I'm sure.Look,I had a friend who was thinking suicide all the time and a way he saved himself was to get out there and keep busy and keep your mind busy,it's a great way to fight this battle,meds can help to,but the right ones,it's a trial and error thing,you will find that once you stay active these thoughts will go away and you will find happiness again.To keep active and doing things is so critical.All the best.
You clear the mind you clear the problem. I too stuggle with despression and take meds but what i have found that helps me more than anyhing is a simple device called an ipod. Purchased one about a month or two ago. Downloaded music i like along with several podcast from itune and that way i get to listen to something or someone any time i want to clear my mind.
Not only do i use this during the day but to help me get to sleep I downloaded some music to relax me. It works for me and sure it will for you.
As a general rule depression comes from not feeling loved or wanted or a host of other things such as worry about bills, and etc. I am a retired man and spend almost all day every day along and before the ipod i spent most all day thinking about mostly bills and now i plug the earphone in my ears, select the music or what i want to listen to. I go about doing what i want and it works for me. Maybe this would help you also.
I sure hope so but a belief in God and yourself will go a long way in correcting your problem.
I have no degree or a doctor but this is my opinion and i know this works for me.
Wish you well and God bless you.