hello. i'm 21 and have been on meds for the past 10 years. i was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder at one point and have been on antipsychotics, mood stabilizers, etc. when they figured out it was just depression about 2 years ago, i was put on lexapro. i gained a lot of weight, felt apathetic...as in i didn't want to do ANYTHING because i didn't care, had absolutely no interest in sex, and was always very fatigued. not liking how i felt, i stopped cold turkey about 10 days ago. my main problem was dizziness and extreme anger....both of which have subsided into crying spells and sadness. i don't know whether i'd rather be sad all the time, or feel like an indifferent robot, though im starting to see minimally positive changes in my weight, less fatigue and a relatively better sex drive. i know these are all symptoms of withdrawal, but im really afraid that i'll have to stay on meds for my life. does anyone know about any of this or if it will go away and after how long? im also on a birth control pill, so i dont know if that affects anything. please help!!!