Warning Long Post, Sorry!
25 year old Depressed Male. College drop out with over 100 credit hours completed. Lately, I been slipping into a more and more depressed state. Coming to work late everyday, not wanting to work, sleeping a lot and not wanting to ever wake up. The sight of people annoys me, being asked simple questions at work by both coworkers and customers annoys me, as does my own mind. Always feel irritated, annoyed, and questioning why Am I here. I'm not suicidal, but at the same time I just want to die already or sleep forever. I have no passion in life, and have 0 interest in any career fields. College seems like such a drag. Also not affordable at all since I'm out of aid. My hobbies are all dead to me as i no longer have interests in video gaming, collecting, or even working out anymore which used to be so big for me. Havent done any kind of lifting or cardio in half a year. Muscle is all gone and im just a blob again after years of lifting. I'm currently living with my other half. Love my partner very much, only thing that really makes me slightly happy. But, because of my issues, I feel bad because I'm not wanting to do much. I hate sex, loud music places, crowded places, hot weather, drinking is gross, and I don't enjoy dancing at bars. So that limits our activities and things to do together in life. I'm such a loser and stuff I don't know how I haven't been dumped yet. We been together for almost 2 years. Wanting to find our own place. But we both work retail and money is tight! I don't know what to do anymore or with myself. Meds don't help and I really hate experimenting with new ones as they only make me feel worse and at the same time being off them is just as worse. Cant find a new psych and the one that I do have I can only see once every 2 months. Always says the same thing over and over again and that life will get better soon.
So, if you got this far id like to apologize for having to read my sad sob of a story of a sorry crap life.
Out of options and ideas on what to do from here.