Neducations

[jaimeinottawa]

I have been on soo many different medications for my bi-polar. I have had doctors tell me I am not bi-polar and put me on antidepressants alone, only for me to become very manic. At this point I am just sick and tired of the medications. I am sick of the doctors and all of the different opinions. The most recent medication I was on was lamotrigine, i was up to 200 mg/day i broke out in tiny itchy bumps everywhere. I stopped taking these pills and the bumps have started to go away. I am not sure if it was an allergic reaction, or what it was. Every pill I have been put on has cause such bad side effects that my life seems pointless and hopeless. I just don't know what to do at this point. Do I just say forget about the meds, I will just try to live my life the best I can knowing I cannot go into busy stores, or work? Or do I keep on this path I have been on trying every different medication the doctors throw my way? The meds I can remember taking, and I dont remember them all are paxil, celexa, effexor, prozack, citalopram, clonazepam, lamotrigine, and there are defanitly more than I cannot remember the names of.  I just dont know what to do anymore...
By the way, i believe Effexor should be taken off of the market. The dreams they cause cannot be a good thing. I was waking up screaming thinking there was blood all over me, calling people to make sure I didn't actually kill them. Something that makes your dreams so evil and feel so real has to be saying something about the medication itself. Yet my doctors told me the dreams were not connected with the pills. Weird how the dreams started when I started taking those pills, and went away when I stopped taking the pills... I never remembered my dreams before the pills, and never remembered them after those pills. Things like this make me wonder about all of the different medications doctors throw at me :S

[ParamedFlorena]

Believe in yourself!!! Everyone can live without medications, but they've got to find the right way to cope. Getting out of depression means you have a better mood and the contrast to the sad mood is huge. It is a constant test to find a balance.
The medications, alright they can help us stay in balance, and give time to find coping skills that we all have inside.

As for my spelling and me? I write down a whole lot of keywords as in what my reply is going to contain. Sometimes I end up saying the total opposite of what I mean because I forget to add "N'T" to "DO" and mmmm.... A good idea is to copy the text over in a word document and run a spell-check. Of course it doesn't catch all the glitches, but very many of them.

All of my spelling, all of my grammar - it's safely cared for in Word :-)

Sometimes we can oppose the diagnose, but it sure takes a lot of focus and endurance to do so! I hope and pray you find your motivation, your endurance and a great deal of hope.

Me? I ran out of belief in the doctors, demanded a specialist in clinical psychology and quit the meds the same day. She advised me not to quit but I was already determined to trust that she'd give me coping skills. It is about finding that one path.

~Florena

[el_dave]

Don't worry about spelling, even folks as intelligent as lonewolf, xanweaner, paramedflorena, and all the others make the occasional typo. The meaning comes across.

Lookie, in a nutshell, our eldest daughter (my wife's and I, I mean.. lonewolf and I are considering running off together someday, but no kids yet) (you do know I'm kidding, right?) was diagnosed bipolar many years ago. She spent years and years and years dealing with all those medications, she had test after test, there was no question about her being bipolar.

Turned out she's not bipolar at all.

I thought you should know.

[jaimeinottawa]

why can't I fix my spelling mistake? I dont feel very smart with the title of my post like that...