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Need help finding a way to cope

Hi. I have bipolar type 2 with panic disorder.  Recently I had to go to the hospital because my liver enzymes were extremely elevated to the point where I almost had to have a transplant.  When I went to the hospital the doctors immediately took me off all medications which were klonopin 2mg twice a day, geodon 80mg at bedtime, and pristiq 100mg in the morning.  My enzymes are still greatly elevated and the doctor will not put me on any meds because of my liver and I am experiencing withdrawal from 1, 2, or all of the meds-which I have been on for about 2 years now.  I am also experiencing severe panic attacks-at least 6-7 per day and my depression is getting to the point of me not even wanting to leave my house.  I am also having suicidal thoughts and have had 6 suicide attempts since I was diagnosed almost 7 years ago.  I don't want to damage my liver anymore and understand that my doctor wants to give my liver a chance to heal but I'm very concerned about acting on my thoughts because it's becoming very hard to try to ignore them more and more each day. I feel like I'm in a catch 22 situation.  On one hand I stay off medications and take the chance of me harming myself to let my liver heal and on the other hand, cause more damage to my liver and relieve the panic attacks and depression.  I feel so lost and hopeless in this situation. Are there any natural ways to level my moods out that won't harm my liver that will help with the panic attacks and depression? I truly need help because my symptoms are getting worse by the day.
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sorry i didnt get back to you a long time ago. my enzymes were finally normal as of june 4th but i still cant take any meds for 6 months-doctor's recommendation-now they're giving me a shot every two weeks until i can take meds again-i guess since it goes straight into my bloodstream it bypasses the liver but it's not usually used for bipolar it's usually used for schizophrenia but it still has a calming effect and seems to lessen the symptoms a bit but the meds work a lot better-the main problem now is trying to control the panic attacks until i can take meds to keep them under control but overall i'm doing better than i was
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Your Dr sounds like a good one and is trying her best to help you. This must be so awful for you. When will you be going back to have your liver enzymes tested again?  
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yes i have talked to my doctor and she told me that she was actively looking for medication that didn't harm the liver but is still unable to find a combination for me that won't cause adverse effects and make me feel worse than i already do because i cant just take an antidepressant or antipsychotic or antianxiety-i seem to need a combination of the 3 to relieve my symptoms and if i dont have that i seem to feel worse and ultimately end up in the hospital-right now i have check in calls twice a day to my doctors office to help me stay on track and help prevent me in harming myself i'm just looking for anything at all to help me with my panic attacks and the depression symptoms because it's to the point where i won't even leave my house and haven't in 4-5 days
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I am so sorry that you're going through this. I do understand your Dr being afraid your liver could fail. Have you talked to him about any possible meds that go mainly through the kidneys instead of the liver?
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