Need help with your depression????

[haylz10]

Last August I was diagnosed with severe depression and for three months was at rock bottom. After one of my suicide attempts I ended up in hospital and have had many ups and downs since then.

I won't say I'm over it because you can never really be sure, but I definitely am a lot stronger. I no longer get suicidal tendancies and if I do have thoughts of cutting, they pass within a few minutes as I keep telling myself I'm stronger than that and eventually I've started to believe it.

I was first prescribed Fluoxetine which made me almost zombie-like for a month so was put on 250mg of Sertraline instead. They worked for a while but I was still cutting and after being sexually assaulted in Feb I knew they weren't helping anymore so the doc doubled the dosage.

Basically if there's ANYONE WHO NEEDS HELP with advice or just wants to talk I'M MORE THAN HAPPY to do that. I don't judge, I don't charge... AND I have the experience... not like some of those physciatrists out there.

So yeah, if you wanna talk or need advice or help with anything to do with depression please don't be afraid to ask... or message me if you like.

x

[haylz10]

Thanks leeland86, glad to hear I've helped in some way.

Anyone else out there who wants some advice/help, I'm online for the next few hours if you wanna chat or message me if you don't wanna post here x

[leeland86]

Thank you kindly for all of your support! I have started watching my diet and i started to exercise regularly although it nly has been 2 days. I feel a little better right now in I'm seeing that my sleeping has been better in the last 2 nights. I'm seeing my family physician soon and I will be seeking some treaatment, but i have to admit that if it wasn't for this website and caring people like yourself I would still be very confused and still very down about the situations im going through. Your support has been greatly appreciated and God bless you and your family. Good luck on your book and I'll definitely keep you in touch and give you some updates. Have yourself a great day!! :)

[sgo62]

I have a friend that gave me some good advice long ago, he said that, EVERYONE suffers--so your not alone. And that everything changes from moment-to-moment to day-to-day. That your changing in subtle ways everyday. Every moment. So the mood you feel now won't be the same tomorrow. Maybe worse. Maybe better. But most important of all was to quiet your mind from the constant chatter going on. Learning how took me a while. Be kind to yourself--and others.

[haylz10]

It's a good thing you won't give into drugs and alcohol as so many go down that road and it's very hard to get out of...

Have you been feeling any better since we last spoke??? I'm not sure what else advice I can give you except to see your GP and tell them you want to be put on medication and that you won't leave until they have because seriously it does help

x

[leeland86]

I have brought up depression and anxiety to my family physician but not bipolar, although things have turned to the worse after the bus incident with new symptoms now. I feel that it's very hard to pin point the exact problem just because the symptoms are very similar. It's been probably about 4 years since i had asked her for help and medication for the derpession/anxiety. I will be bringing this to my physician's attention. And to your other question, not the entire year, but for most of the year i have slowly wanted to be more alone. but now its very strong. I love my family and i am truly blessed to have them along with great friends but im pushing them all away over time because i am truly happier to be alone. but the confusing part is that all my life i have been a people person and very outgoing. And i get very frustrated and angry when people try to push their way into being around me. My personality truly has changed drastically. But maybe i also feel this way because i feel that nobody can relate to me. I find it very frustrating because nobody around me seems to understand how i feel. All in all im just completely confused, it really is hard to explain eveything and to place emotion into words. I have always been strong and i'll keep fighting untill it kills me but i'll never give into drugs in alcohol, they are not apart of my surroundings. And i hope that you are successful in completing your book and im sure it will have great meaning to the people who can relate. Like i said, sometimes it can be the difference between life and death for some just by knowing they arent alone. God Bless!

[haylz10]

"...driving for me is my freedom"

You said it! Honestly I still have days where I would much rather be on my own doing what makes me happy than sit at home with the family, I don't care if it sounds loser-ish because it makes me happy so who is anyone else to judge?? And you need to think the same way too...

I'm actually writing a book about my depression and how I've coped and even if I'm out in the park for a few hours working on it, it brings peace to me and makes me happy.... so if driving is what makes you happy and relaxed do it!!!!

You say you've been fighting it for over a year... have you been feeling isolated all of that time or most of the time??? Or were there times even before then you preferred being on your own???

Sometimes now I'm still like that but for three months I was completely at the bottom and this was last year!!!! I'm still working my way back up and I'm not even half the person I used to be but I'm alive and I got through it, you can do the same.... remember it has to come from within.

Don't let anyone make you think your life's not worth living or that you're useless because we all go through rough patches, some more than others, and it takes a while to get through it.... I mean, how many days does a cold last for example??? Or how long is a piece of string??? There's no set time on any of these things and that's the pivitol thing... time.

Have you been offered or asked the doctor for suggestions on medication???? x

[leeland86]

Thanks for your response and that is a great question! When I come to think of it, often I'm happy when I'm in my car alone listening to music while driving randomly. I have a great appreciation for all kinds of music and driving for me is my freedom. I love to travel and I'm too scared to fly because of my incident on the city transportation busses. So I love to take road trips, it brings peace to me. And I seem to be a lot happier when i'm alone. But this has only been like this since the bus incident. I like to feel isolated. Before this all began I was extremely outgoing and loved to be around people...maybe I just became acustomed to being alone because i have being fighting this for over a year now? i dont have an accurate answer for that one.

[haylz10]

To be completely honest I agree with mommiesadie2 who replied to your post.

Professionally I don't know the exact differences between depression and bi-polar disorder but are told they are very similar...

I'd say medication is the best option, I know maybe you may be a little worried about the side effects but these do pass within two to three weeks and they do make you feel better after.

I can totally relate to the anger issue mentioned... sometimes I'll be having the most wonderful day then an argument with my family will bring me completely down but what you need to tell yourself is you're better than that... you won't believe it at first but, like I did, keep telling yourself and in the end you'll see it's true.

But whatever you do DON'T SELF MEDICATE with drink/drugs etc... trust me, it will only make things worse in the long run. I know it may sound hypocritical as I used to self harm as a way of making myself feel better but I eventually realised it wasn't worth it... neither is drink or drugs...

I do have a simple question though and I'm hoping the answer will help give me a better idea of what more to suggest.... what are the THREE THINGS that make you happy or lift your mood from a downer????

Even if they're just little things, let me know (if you want to) and I'll do my best with some more advice x

[leeland86]

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Depression/hello/show/1242549

[leeland86]

ill post it here lol

[haylz10]

Thanks for the thanks :D

Sure I can read your post, you got the link for it??? x

[leeland86]

I am very glad to hear that you are stronger and doing better than you were before! Life is so precious and is truly God given. I am glad to see that you are offering to help those who are in need of answers. Thst is exactly why this website is so affective. I just joined today and i had posted a story. I was just wondering if you could read my post because i literally wrote a book lol. you can reply here or over on my post. Thanks for your kindness!!