Thanks for your advice. I am going to take your advice and just try to get away from those things/people who depress me. In the meantime, I am looking for friends b/c I have no friends whatsoever. My husband, whom I knew since high school, passed away about 2 years ago and he was my only friend. I dont want to be all alone. Its devastating.
Yeah, I know about no family support. In the end it was I who cut them off and told them to go forth and multiplyu, except not so politely. They were always interfering, always condescending and always saying things like "You should be over that by now" etc.
Totally ignorant and I found them to be the cause of much of my anger and depression in that once they were out of my life a huge weight lifted from my shoulders, truly did. I lost my kids to me ex, the dragon I call her. But I maintained a relationship with them and dealt with it in time. I didn't want to lose them but as a male I had little chance you see. I wanted them but the law said "Get lost".
Advice? SImply this. You don't need anyone to lean on as the reality is they are feeding off you. They use you in their way and weaken you. With them around you are more than just lonely, you are in fear too aren't you as they threaten you through your child.
You do not need these people, it is your child and it is rare a court would take your child away if you are strong enough to fight for them.
Get the hell away from them and make sure your child is YOUR child and not theirs. Don't let them do everything for the child as that's how they will steal the child away rather than through a court.
You need to be strong which means treating your depression aggressively, taking control of such and following docs advice to the letter. If you do that no court can say you are doing anything but the right thing.
My thoughts go with you.