Exchanging emails and gifts would be OK with me, too, if that was the case with my parents. It seems like they are always asking me for money! For one thing or another. I know it's because they believe children are born to take care of their parents. My religion doesn't have a God/gods, so we were taught that nothing is higher than our parents, they are the ones who gave us life, to defy them is taboo! I realize now that it is soooooo wrong! But as children, we didn't know that, of course.
I wish the relationship was as simple as just pictures, emails, and gifts. I'm happy things worked out for you.
I had the same experience with my parents!! I left the house at 18 and never returned back, just as you're describing they set those ridiculous expectations that I never lived up to. Thanks to my rebellious personality, I just decided to live my own life. Now, I'm happily married and while I never go visit them, we exchange emails and gifts etc. that's about all.
Mammo! I agree with everything you say, it's just very hard to communicate the same message to my parents, they are very rooted to their culture and misguided beliefs. Yes, I know, they have asked for financial help the past few years...not because of emergegency, but because they've promised other people to do something or be somewhere...so they wanted help with expenses. Yes, I know, shame on me for helping because I'm letting them use me.
It's hard for me to forgive people, that's one of my biggest flaw, I hold very long grudges. I'm a reasonably fair person, I'm very open-minded, I've met people from all walks of life so I consider myself to be someone who is capable of making wise decisions and have good judgements about others.
You are correct though, I need to forgive and let go and move on because if I don't, I'm going to continue building this anger and hatred inside of me. Not to mention the fact that I'm desparately telling myself positive things everyday to keep from falling into my black hole of fear, anxiousness, depression...
Thank you so much.....it really helps to have other people BELIEVE me and tell me that I am justified in feeling what I feel.
They put so much emphasis on you being a failure, yet they are always asking you for help financially????? They are so wrong in how they have and are treating you! Parents have to earn respect, it's not a given. You're standing on your own two feet and it's time they do the same. But you need to "forgive." Forgiving them does not make their actions right, and it's not saying you condone their actions, it is merely laying down the anger and walking away. You don't even have to ever speak to them again.....I wouldn't want to. If you don't do this, it's going to eat you up inside and you don't deserve this! Don't feel bad for not helping your parents, they have abused your kindness and beat down your self-esteem. You have your own family now, concentrate on the people who truly love and support you. You have nothing to feel bad about. I wish you all the best and take care!
You're right, I need to go see a counselor, I'll have to call and setup an appointment, I need some help....I don't think the relationship can be restored, because no matter what happens, they always make me the one at fault here. Thanks.
Have you seen a counselor? I have a friend who went through this and she went to counseling for herself first and once she completed that she was able to stand up for herself, be honest with her family and their relationship is now restored.