Please find another doctor right away! There is nothing wrong with getting some relief from medication. Often the medication will get you to a place that will allow therapy to work. Anti-depressants usually take a few weeks to help, so the sooner you start the better. Do not make any decisions now regarding suicide, work, or any other life changes. Your thinking is clouded by your depression.
To start... I agree with willobird! Find another doctor immediately! I don't advocate drugs, but even I had to go on something when I felt like my world was going to crash down on me. Find a medical doctor who will actually listen AND HEAR what you are saying so you can be properly diagnosed with the right meds. Don't ever apologize for how you are feeling. We are all important! Even you! I came close to committing suicide when I was a teenager. I won't get into that, but suffice it to say I was in a bad way. I stood there looking at the pills in my hand and the thought that came to mind was; if I do this, they win and I lose. Don't do this, somebody out there loves you. Remember, no matter how bad it feels, somebody will miss you. Hang on to that, and don't be afraid to reach out. I must say, it really helped me last week when I was having a hard time coming off meds. This forum is a Godsend!
Now, to address the other statement... You are never too old to get a job! I started a new career at the age of 44. Now I am embarking on the start of another career. I am 47. It is never too late! And never feel you are trapped in your first choice. I became a cashier at the age of 42, and support worker at 44 and I am now looking at and finding passion in photography. WHO KNEW!!! None of these things really entered my mind as careers. Being a cashier drove me nuts, but it got me out of the house and into something other than myself. I absolutely love being a support person, but now I am absolutely passionate about photography. Though I am not professional yet, I am published. Reach for your dreams! Life is way too short. You are never too old to start something new!
i am so much STUPPIDER than u.........dont even try
pleeze if u feel suicidal yell!! scream!! i am a total *** hole..........
ur not as bad as i ammm!!!! take care\
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if you do end up taking meds for depression, stay away from EFFEXOR! the withdrawal is worse than the actual depression itself. i have suffered with anxiety and depression for many years, and, despite what ignorant people may think, it is a very real and debilitating disease! my only advice, as far as the suicide is concerned, is DON'T DO IT! there is always another option, and i somehow managed to talk myself out of suicide at least a dozen times. have someone there with you as much as possible, and i really hope you feel better =[
Sorry for taking to long to respond. I'm still learning how to use this site - hope you understand. Think I was unclear - my therapist is helpful but cannot "be there" in the middle of the night which is when these awful feelings often occur. I do take meds, small doeses but they give temporary help.
I am very greatful that you communicated with me. Not feeling totally alone makes a big difference.