I need to cry

[seriouslyhopeless]

I have been going through some serious depression for the frist time in my life...i have never been in this type of situation before where it seem like every single thing in my life is going down hill AND fast.... nothing is working out right or even half way decent.I have been out of work for a year, no unemployment, cant find a job and a single parent.Needless to say it is christmas and cant buy one thing for my child because i dont have a dollar.I'm bout to be evicted, my car note is past due and i am down to my last $100 but i have a disconnect note for dpl so i have to pay 84$ on that tomorrow...I have this lump in the back of my throat....i feel like at any momment i could break down an just cry but i cant....everybody around me keep telling me that things are going to get better but none of them are living in my shoes....I need some serious help i am getting worst as days go by...i feel like doing nothing!!! My doctor gave me some xanax to calm me down but i just want to take my meds and lay in my bed and sleep....How do i get through this?

[liam09]

Your really going through a hard time. Things will get better. Your not alone and you can win this battle stay strong and hold on to your faith

[seriouslyhopeless]

Thank You

[opus88]

Mammo has given you very good advice and is willing to step out for you and go beyond listening, she is a wonderful caring person.
I agree no one can understand this desperation unless they have been there. All we can do is try to help in some small way.
A good cry isn't a bad thing you are holding alot inside and need a good cry, no wonder you just feel like laying down and pulling the covers over your head I have been there too before I started antidepressants. I always blamed my depression on my situation, but a good psych. told me even situational can turn clinical without help.
there are many things in our lives we cannot change and are in no control of and these are the ones that cause the most depression.
Seek out all the resources that Mammo mentioned a hand will make a big difference for your little one and make you feel better for this.
God bless you dear, please keep talking with us so we can encourage you having someone just listen is so much better than holding it all in..

[mammo]

My gosh, you are certainly having a tough time. You should be eligible for welfare as it was designed for people like you.  Since you don't receive unemployment they will help you with rent, food, and clothing.  Contact local churches and organizations that help children have a nice Christmas, and some will provide you with Christmas dinner. Contact Toys for Tots, and local police stations who are known to help familes at Christmas.  Until someone has known this kind of desperation, they haven't a clue.  Yes, things will get better, but when, and you need help now!  You need to have a good cry...seriously, who wouldn't?  Call your doctor and tell him what the Xanax is doing, and not helping, you need an antidepressant.  I don't know where you live in Ohio, but I'm on the state line of Ohio and Indiana.  If you can shoot me a note as to where you are, I will make sure your child has gifts, and will check out some organizations for you.  Please try to be strong, I know it's difficult, maybe together we can work thru this.