Weird Depression

[westsidecml]

I have been suffering from Depression for many years, even though I am only 15. When I was born, I was diagnosed with Autism but my doctors have never been sure if it is actually Brain Damage. At birth, I was revived and delivered by a nurse. I also had a jaundice and not infant jaundice but full-blown jaundice. When I was about seven, I was on anti-psychotic medicine and I was taken off because of bladder maintenance problems. I have been having surreal conversations in my head all day long with real people and fictional people. I also talk to a fictional psychiatrist off television. Lately, I have been having anxiety panic attacks with up to now have included chest pain. My anxiety has not been this bad. Normally, I have a good appetite but the last few days, I have not eaten much. I am also forgetting little things. I always have forgotten little things, but now they are getting worse. These conversations in my head have also caused minor headaches. After a massive panic attack, I started having and realizing all these serious signs of depression. My mood swings are very off lately. At some points, of the day I cannot concentrate at all. I have been losing track of time also. I also have been having aggressive dreams of killing my family, which I believe I will never do. I saw my family physician and he had me see the crisis team at my local hospital and I eventually after a long wait talk to a psychiatrist briefly and he prescribed a tranquilizer medicine at a low dosage to help me sleep.

[mammo]

You've been thru way too much for your age, or any age!  You really need to talk to your parents so that they can find you a pyschiatrist so that you can spend some time in therapy with discussing all this.  It takes more than one visit, and they are most knowledgeable with what you are feeling, and can provide medications to help with all this.  I'm sure this is all very scary for you, but there is help, and many on here who have endured the same, so know you're not alone.  It's very important to let your parents know all you're feeling so you can get help.  If for some reason you feel you can't talk to them, write it in a letter to them.  They love you and would want to know so that they can help you.  You can always ask your school counselor for help also.  It sounds like you have depression but only a professional can diagnose this, and help you.  Please talk to your parents and get the help you need and deserve.  I can tell by how you write that you are very bright, and you can have a happy life.  We all need help sometimes, and it will be okay.  Take care....

[ILADVOCATE]

Yes it would be essential to follow up with a psychiatrist but they have to have a full diagnosis so they would know how to follow up with specific appropriate treatment as to what happenned to you at birth because autism is very different from some form of brain damage. If you are seeing a psychiatrist then your family should have them refer you to a neurologist for a full evaluation. If a person has a psychiatric disability that needs treatment and a physical disability as well that has caused some form of mental changes the physical disability needs to be diagnosed and treated as well which a neurologist could do.