HELP me..... I am suffering

[alee520]

I have had depression and anxiety for many years due to a rough childhood. Yesterday I had this fear of falling out of the window. There was this voice telling me to stand on the window latch and see if I would fall down. I live on the 12th storey. I have suffered such fears before and I try to cope. This episode started because I was cleaning the curtain rail and it was pretty high, I started to fear falling off again. I try telling myself I should always close the windows first before climbing so high.... I am trying to recover from this fear now...

[LeftCoastChick]

I'm going to be direct, get help now.  You are obviously suicidal, and that is pretty darn serious, if you are thinking that.  Go to your local ER now.

If you are not going to go get help, how can we here help you? You have to take hold of the reigns of your life.

Again, please go to your local hospital immediately and get help.

[alee520]

Can anyone tell me when my life is going to come to an end????

[alee520]

Thanks a lot..... I am trying to overcome all my fears/worries/anxiety. I have felt like this for years and years. Sometimes I feel dead... I have problems finding a job and my family doesn't care for me.. What can I do but life a day at a time....

[LeftCoastChick]

I suspect that you may have bipolar disorder. I know it sounds really scary, but it isn't.
What will happen is you will be put on a different class of meds, which will really assist you with your anxiety  Your brain will settle down, your anxiety will have better controlled, your passive suidical ideations will ease up.

How I describe BP is like a many forked tree, there are so many different symptoms associated with it. Symptoms vary with different people. My jaw dropped when I got diagnosed. I thought, I only have anxiety and depression, how could this be?  I saw a team of pdocs, and they asked a ton of questions. I was very open and frank about everything. I then did some research and had an "Ah ha" moment, it made sense.


I was diagnosed with depression at age 7, but I never felt really well. I'm doing pretty good now.  What you are going to do is start on a path of wellness, regardless of the diagnosis. You can only go up from here, albeit there will be hiccups, but you're getting there.

I can completely relate to your fears, I was sure I was going to have a heart attack when I was only in grade 3!!  It's a horrid, horrid feeling, anxiety is devastating.
Prozac can be activating in folks with anxiety, what I mean by that is, depending on the diagnosis, it can actually make it worse, some it helps. Only your pdoc can really figure that out, I wouldn't leave that to a GP. My own GP make some really big errors with my medications, and they aren't equipped well to deal with mental illness. They take a few courses, but it shadows in comparison to a pdoc.

I'm starting a program to deal with our thought processes, like negative thinking leads to negative actions. So If you have a negative thought in your head, you will proceed in a negative way because of that negative thought. Rather then getting the thought and going through and thinking, Okay I have this thought, say falling out of window. Look at the window and realize it there, and the odds of that happening are a million to one.

The mind is a strange organism, but realize we have trained it to think in a certain way, harder is to retrain it, but YOU can. Meds can help ease your symptom, but know you are going to have to be actively participating in your path to wellness.

Pm me anytime, keep in touch, let us know how you're doing. Remember, by posting, you are acknowledging that you have these issues  The first step, and kudos to you for doing that. Get busy!

[alee520]

Thanks for all the concern, I can feel that you people really care. My anxiety/depression problems may never go away..... I have all sorts of fear, anything from cancer,hiv,diabeties,falling out of the window, fear of incontinence etc etc.. Can anyone tell me when my life is going to end??? Today I went out and on the way back, fear of incontinence struck me, and I was worried about whether I will pee in my pants. After this problem, there may be others waiting in the queue.... I have coped with all these anxiety/fear/depression for years. I have prozac available but I am not sure if it helps anxiety?

[LeftCoastChick]

Please get yourself to the hospital, if you are passively wanting your life to end, you need immediate help. Posting here, is great, but getting help is better. Don't be ashamed, think of it like any other illness, if you had such a bad ear ache you would go to the ER, this is another type of ache.

[toby45]

You're not alone my friend. We're all in the same boat, heading towards the same destination of good health and balanced living - one day soon. When we're just trying to make ends meet and cope with daily living life does seem like it becomes a chore.

But know that you're here among friends - who're just beginning to get to know you - and understand to some extent what you're going through.

The others before me have given you some rather sound advice. Thanks for posting cz I've learned from your post too. As medgeek says, altho this the internet, we are all real people here who care about each other.

My heart goes out to you, try to get some help as soon as possible and I shall say a prayer this xmas for you. No matter what you may think and feel right now, your life is a blessing to many more than you could ever fathom.

Sincerely,
Toby

[alee520]

Thanks to all you kind souls for your advice. I am glad to know I am not alone. I have a history of OCD and I suffer from all sorts of anxiety/fear/worries. My life revolves around all these negative thoughts. I often ask myself when all these is coming to an end....... My life is really a chore. I have difficulties making ends meet, and I constantly fight the demons in my head. Why doesn't my life just end????

[LeftCoastChick]

Sweetie, get yourself to the hospital, you are hearing audible voices whom have given you ideas of possibly falling out of a window. This is not normal, but you are having hallucinations which now sound dangerous.

Please go to the hospital, they'll put you on something to settle down your brain, I went, my mind instead of roaring is just quietly humming now.

[medgeek]

I hope you are OK now, too. Try talking to someone when you feel bad. It helps to have someone listen. Even if there is no one in real life, there are people on the net, and behind it all we are real people too. On forums you might not get a reply right away, but they will come and if they don't, post again! You can message me if you want to talk.

[therese83]

Hello

That sounds very scary.  I hope you are OK now.

I am concerned about the voice and I think that you really need to get yourself into a psychiatrist to discuss in more detail. If it gets any worse please go to the emergency  room, I presume it is hard to get tratment in this time of year.  But if you are sick you are sick, so go to the emergency room.

You dont say  if/what medication you are on.  If you want to post agian and people here can help and support you.

Ihope you are OK now