This is what some doctors also call a chemical imbalance, and many have this. You will probably need medication for the rest of your life, and that's truly okay! If it were diabetes or some other illness you wouldn't think twice about taking the needed medication. I've been told that I will need mine for the rest of my life, and if this is what I have to do to be happy, and productive, so be it. You need to look at it as any other illness. I'm happy everything is going so well for you! Take care.
It sounds like you still need the 200mg so I wouldn't worry about cutting it back at this point. If you haven't tried therapy you may want to give that a try, it's often helps to get to the root cause of your depression if there is one. Things from our past that we haven't truly dealt with or tried to forget normally rear their ugly heads in depression and/or anxiety, making us deal with it. You still need the medication, so don't be in a hurry to get off of it. Many of us need it for the rest of our lives, if that's what it takes to keep us happy, and living a fulfilling life, so be it. Sometimes we need to realize that depression can be just like any other illness where we require daily medication to relieve the symptoms. For some reason, because we are dealing with the brain, we feel we shouldn't take the needed medication(s), which isn't fair to do to ourselves. Take care!
I have been through therapy,and I'm still seeing a counsellor.I was sexually abused as a child but that has been dealt with as far as my feelings and emotions,I have been on Zoloft for 15 years,when I take it my life is balanced,every time I try to cut down on the dose it gets out of balance again,I become angry,fearful,upset and suicidal other than that I'm a normal person,LOL
My doctor calls it clinical depression not reactive depression,even if I am on top of the world and loving life (which I am at the moment,that's why I tried to cut back)it just spirals downhill when I cut back.
Good for you! You know you best!