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What is wrong with me ?
I have been to the doctors recently in trying to fix my mental health, After informing them that I was feeling depressed with anxiety, they gave me a prescription for citalopram. I could not get therapy for three or four months, so for some reason I didn't bother with it, hoping in time that the citalopram would get me back on my feet.
The citalopram at first helped me throughout the first two months, but then I started getting worse, I had really bad anxiety around people, so I stopped it all together. Many people have told me that they think I might have a bipolar disorder, my history has been quite troubling as I have done many things spontaneously that I consider afterwords completely mad for e.g. Borrowing a lot of money from payday loans even though knowing fully well that I couldn't afford to pay it back, getting fired for unlawful social networking, stealing money from my parents...
I seem to have constant mood swings throughout the day. It has affected relationships with many people, friends family and previous girlfriends. Whenever I go out with friends, I seem to have problems. When drunk I tend to have no control and end up doing something very harmful to others around me, people have noted that my mood seems to change drastically when drinking and or taking other drugs. I have missed many interviews for important jobs because of getting intoxicated the night before, I have trouble maintaining my sleeping pattern, I over eat or don't eat at all, I have had in the past, problems with leaving the house and being outdoors.
My question is, Is there anyone I can talk to about this ? So that I can hopefully get a better understanding as to why I am doing this. Possibly someone that has had the same experiences.
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The citalopram at first helped me throughout the first two months, but then I started getting worse, I had really bad anxiety around people, so I stopped it all together. Many people have told me that they think I might have a bipolar disorder, my history has been quite troubling as I have done many things spontaneously that I consider afterwords completely mad for e.g. Borrowing a lot of money from payday loans even though knowing fully well that I couldn't afford to pay it back, getting fired for unlawful social networking, stealing money from my parents...
I seem to have constant mood swings throughout the day. It has affected relationships with many people, friends family and previous girlfriends. Whenever I go out with friends, I seem to have problems. When drunk I tend to have no control and end up doing something very harmful to others around me, people have noted that my mood seems to change drastically when drinking and or taking other drugs. I have missed many interviews for important jobs because of getting intoxicated the night before, I have trouble maintaining my sleeping pattern, I over eat or don't eat at all, I have had in the past, problems with leaving the house and being outdoors.
My question is, Is there anyone I can talk to about this ? So that I can hopefully get a better understanding as to why I am doing this. Possibly someone that has had the same experiences.
:)
Actually, you need to be seeing a psychiatrist if you are on medication. A primary care is really not the most trained to handle this, and yes, it could easily be bipolar. You need someone very trained who can distinguish between bipolar and depression so that you don't get worse from an incorrectly prescribed med.
Also, NEVER stop medication on your own. You can get horrendous side effects from many psychological drugs if you stop suddenly (things like hallucination, dry retching, pain, etc).
Lastly, there are psychiatrists who specialize in addiction - drug and alcohol use will complicate treatment, but a doctor who is trained can help move your healing along far more quickly.
Also, NEVER stop medication on your own. You can get horrendous side effects from many psychological drugs if you stop suddenly (things like hallucination, dry retching, pain, etc).
Lastly, there are psychiatrists who specialize in addiction - drug and alcohol use will complicate treatment, but a doctor who is trained can help move your healing along far more quickly.
You should go back to your pdoc. If you are bipolar citalopram on its own can be a disaster.I was on it for years as misdiagnosed as depressed and started to fly! obviously it stopped work for depressions as well so got into really dark places. I stil have scitalopram and also Lamictal - mood stabilizer. it is early days but generally I am better - not 100% though.
Go back to pdoc, do not wait, and yes I believe all the thinking as gomemi wrote can help you.
You have always us here to talk to ;)
Best of luck. xx
Go back to pdoc, do not wait, and yes I believe all the thinking as gomemi wrote can help you.
You have always us here to talk to ;)
Best of luck. xx
You are out of control. Yes I've been there, maybe a tiny bit more responsible because I don't believe stealing.
You need to define your personality. Mood swings I understand can sway you to bad decisions. Your backbone & ethics & morals help you in these circumstances.
Free group therapy is available thru NAMI & DBSA web sites. Pamela
You need to define your personality. Mood swings I understand can sway you to bad decisions. Your backbone & ethics & morals help you in these circumstances.
Free group therapy is available thru NAMI & DBSA web sites. Pamela
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Have you asked yourself that maybe drinking might not be good for you?
Maybe your surroundings are not the right fit for someone smart like you? (since you are getting called for good positions in the workforce)
Have you written down your goals and aspirations you want to achieve?
You know, sometimes drinking, having a great time with friends is obviously fun and required. But you shouldn't let it consume you.
Go for a walk alone or with a good friend who you know will speak the truth, your parents usually are the best people in the world who will tell and support you.. if you don't have that seek a friend, or at the very least a therapist. A therapist will let you express yourself and you will be able to answer a few of your questions or not most of them.
Really do believe in yourself, believe you are the best person in this world, and that you are the only person who can change you. No one else will be able to change you, you are your greatest help. You should know whats good or whats bad for you. I hope you do find yourself in becoming a better person and obtaining your goals!