where to begin?
I smoked weed for approx 6 years now, im 20 so since 13/14ish
i wouldnt say heavily until the past 3 yrs, then v heavy for the past 2
and ive quit as of one month now
i spend a hella lot of time at my pc outside college (communicating with hundreds of people via messenger, social networks and video games)
maybe its the food im eating, i rarely eat good food, mainly pizzas, burgers, chocolate etc. very quick and easy food, im not fat though i have a good body suprisingly though i rarely excercise and dont do much physically, being a geek and all lol
i cant wake up at all, my sleep pattern is always shifting so i never have a good run of sleep as im up for like 2 days at a time sometimes very reguarly so sleep wise im facked lol
however this is it...
basically i feel empty and its not that i have problems with emotions, its like i overthink as though my brain feels supercharged all the time to the point of unbelievable proportions, an example would be im working on something yet at the same time im taking in a hundred thigns around me, i cant stop sometimes when i realise im taking everything in its like even more starts filling my mind and on and on, its quite bizzare and as such my social interaction suffers immensley
its not that i have problems socially either, im liked by my fellow classmates and i enjoy speaking to people ive never met before, however the problem stems when i know someone, its like i lose my ability to communicate and share and express feelings with them.
Its essentially that my communication skills are just dead in the water sometimes, im a pretty humourous person as well or at least i used to be, its like ive laughed out all my humour, i rarely laugh or can quickly be off the bat on a joke or do anything socially as well as i used to, its as though its getting worse as well.
i think ive included everything i think can give any insight to why i feel emotionless depressed and dead all the time - any suggestions, ideas, thoughts???