its almost my 14th birthday and i feel suicidal, i cant sleep and i keep crying and i dont know what to do i feel like i have no one to talk to, ive tried weed to help me sleep but it affects me really badly, i passed out so i got sleep but i ended up throwing up and feeling really uncomfertable and had a bad migrane, im probably the most anti social person in my friendship group im always the one that has my headphones in listening to music and i have really bad mood swings, does anyone know any solutions for any of my problems? please please help