i want to know how i can keep from crying, and how i can hold back tears. since the age of 9, i have had severe depression but i never cried like i do now. i have been severely depressed for weeks. it's becoming dangerous. it's very hard for me not to cry, and at work i don't let people know but i hide my face all day as much as i can. i was assigned a social worker as well as a psychiatrist; she asked if i thought of suicide and i started sobbing even though i was saying no, everything she said i just... cry! and i can't get a word out or talk to another person without feeling the tears start to well up. i have a boyfriend who knows i'm sad, but he feels guilty and doesn't want to have to support me because he considers it really needy and he always gets depressed himself when i cry, but his response is to keep to himself. the fact that i make people around me feel weird and depressed is bad enough for me. often, when i open my mouth to speak to someone, tears start pouring down my face. it's even worse to be ashamed from crying. and sometimes i am so uncontrollably loud that i have to muffle my face. now, i am seeing a doctor-- this comes and goes, but i have never seen someone cry as hard as i do, and it's too often. i have to stop. all i want is a suggestion on how to hold back tears. because it's humiliating, and half the time i'm crying is just because I CAN'T STOP and i feel like i can't control it.