Well I am old and near to death, but I know we all have to die. You should not be thinking such thoughts at your age. What brought this fear on? Has something happened in your life to make you feel like this? You have many years ahead of you, go out there and grab the world.
First of all, you need to see a doctor. Perhaps you are not depressed. Perhaps you just lack self confidence. You really need to talk to someone and find out if what you are feeling is depression or something else.
Keep up your dream of joining the navy. Please don't be negative. Tell yourself you can do whatever you desire.
Sounds like the relationship you are in is bad for you, but you are frightened to let it go. Have you family or close friends you can talk to? Bottling things up will not help. I am glad you are talking to us here. You need to see that you are a good person but just lack self confidence. Tell yourself you can do whatever you want.
Your plan to go into the Navy... What happened?
Everyone dies. If you believe in God, you will know it's when he calls us home. Not to be afraid.
You are young. My advice- drop this boy. Get a girlfriend and do a sport like racket ball, tennis or rollerblading.
I didn't marry until my late 30's. I'm a waterskier & wakeborder. Swim & walk 5 miles pr day. Took up art as a hobby & now I have an art studio.
Sure I get bad days. If you have trouble, pamper yourself. Take a long bath w Epsom salts & perfume. Light a candle & meditate into the flame.
Keep posting your progress. Maxy