i think it is time I got help

[birdbrain93]

I can not keep a job. my moods are many and radical.I do not trust anyone at all. I hate almost everyone. I lie to keep people away. I want to sail of into the sea and not come back. I want to die but i am to chicken to kill my self. I hate my life.  I have ptsd but that is the least of my problems. I think I need help but i am broke. If anyone can help please let me know. my e-mail is maxwell.***@****

[birdbrain93]

brice 1967 i guess I should have been more clear. P.T.S.D. is NOT what i need help for. yes I have ptsd. from a drug dealer putting a gun to my head. big woop I would do that again. more important is everything else I wrote. here is a little history. first off to my face my mom said she did not and never did care about me. big woop. I allays hated her. second when i was younger i set myself on fire.(got wrote up in the papers) problem was my sister was home so that did not work. I have taken pills but either thrown up or just gotten over their affects. I have been stabbed by a man hiding in a clothes rack. I have been in a bad motorcycle wreck. etc. bottom line is i am older now and still can not get a grip on life. my mind wander and reality fades. i have awful mood swings that are so radical it scares people. I need some help.

[brice1967]

There is help out there.  You've made the first step, and that is a big deal.  You are reaching out and I think that is awesome.  Look for therapists that specialize in PTSD... Look for groups, look for clinics.  The help is there, you just have to find it...

Best wishes.