hi,,, lately after i come back from korea and me and my girlfriend had little incident where we r freaking about pregnancy (all the people said its impossible or not likely but still worryies me to death)
anyways i can't sleep during night,, i can't enjoy hanging out wiht my friends,,,
i can't enjoy anything,,
in korea vacation btw,,, visited my family :) everytime i woke up theres lot of people,, activity i can do,, just people was around and family too
but now here,,, i live with my mom only,, and she works at least 10 hours a day and schools out so i have no one at my house,,, and lately im having this preg or not concern making me wanting to give up my life is killing me,,,
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heres the problem just incase u guys wana know
i think it will help if u guys read it
anyways im on computer 24/7 reading about it worrying about it but it can't leave my mind
i cry during night,,, i can't enjoy anything
and on november im going to sent off for my basic for navy training
and just thought how lonely my mom will be
she have no friend here because we r koreans and she can't speak any english,, she comes up watch netflix and sleep im the only person she talks too,,
i just had this idea of how badof son i am and how lonely she will be when im gone
shes recently divorced too
i know that my main concern is that preg or not thing i have in my mind and its killing me im asking myself what if she is even though its not possible accoding to 40 people i asked,,,,
i just wana just tell my mom and say lets die or just kill myself,, go to bad neighborhood and get on fight so i can go to hospital where people r there 24/7 i even thought about that
this girl and i,,, because of this concern its not going good,, before i loved to talk to her,, now shes the main problem i my life i think,,, she used to be independent and strong now shes needy and want me and stuff
i can't handle it
idk if this is depression or not but i just can't take this anymore i want to die someone plz help me plz