I started a research study last year. we are sure i was on the placebo cause i felt no change. But after that study, they let me be in a long term study on the real med. It is a stimulant simular to Ritalin. It helped me 110%. I was so happy all summer. I kept very busy starting starting a vegetable garden. And felt very positive. For some reason, when summer was ending and weather got colder, i was a little more depressed. I just loved being outside everyday. The doctor thinks it is normal ups and downs. I probably would be much worse if i was not on the med cause of the holiday. I am happy to be home alone. Socializing makes me very uncomfortable now. Ik never was a big talker but liked being around groups of people. I was also started on meloxicam for achiness and low back pain. It took all my pain away. That is still worki ng unless i do too much heavy lifting or lay on the couch too much. I felt loike you, that i could not handle anything else to go wrong in ky life. Don't know if iam really ADHD. They did not test for it when i was young.