what should i do?

[mandapanda928]

Just got on Depakote not to mention been staying at my moms house and me and my boyfriend haven't been getting a long very well, and I don't feel like I can reach out to any of my friends. I've been having a really really hard time. Just crying all the time, and getting feelings of just wanting to hit myself. I feel like I hate myself. I JUST NEED SOMEONE HERE FOR ME. I feel like I can barely walk around through out the day I feel like any minute I'm just going to pass out , fall over and die.  and sometimes I wish I would. People put so much extra stress on me, I just can't do it. I know I need serious help. I just don't want to suffer anymore. I've been dealing with these problems since I was a little girl. It gets better for a while then it gets worse it's never just one way no matter how hard I work at it.

[RainLover71]

You're welcome Manda and Take care.

[Hobby10]

If directed at me u are very welcome.  Put yourself first for a while.   And don't take any crap frm anyone.  (:0)

[mandapanda928]

TOTALLY AGREE WHEN I'M BY MYSELF I START TO FEEL A LOT BETTER, WHEN I START TO FEEL THE PRESSURE OF PEOPLE STARTING TO COME HOME I GET ON EDGE AND JUMPY "LIKE WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TODAY" WHO'S GOING TO HURT ME? IT'S NOT A GOOD FEELING. I HOPE THAT THIS MEDICATION STARTS TO HELP , AND I HAVE THERAPY FRIDAY DBT SO I'M HOPING FOR THE BEST AND THAT THIS PERSON I CAN TRUST WITH HELPING ME. THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE AND READING AND CARING IT MEANS SO MUCH. <3 XOXO

[mandapanda928]

THANK YOU VERY MUCH YOU ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING POSITIVE AND VERY MOTIVATIONAL TO SAY. WHEN I DON'T FEEL CLOSE TO ANYONE ELSE I FEEL LIKE ALL OF YOU ON HERE ARE MY FRIENDS, AND UNDERSTAND ME THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE AND ALWAYS HAVING SOMETHING WONDERFUL TO SAY. XOXO

[Hobby10]

Sometimes you are in your best company all by yourself.  Take care of you.  Care about you.  Don't accept crap from anybody.  That's easier said than done but don't you deserve to put yourself first.  And meds can help especially coupled w therapy.  Good luck girl.

[RainLover71]

We all feel like this from time to time Manda,praying things will get better or just be Ok so we can at least cope with the situations life seems to throw at us.It's not easy but if we throw in the towel it doesn't make it any better.I don't want to sound like a broken record but meds and being around positive people will help to lift your spirits I'm sure.Life is always going to test us and make us work hard to be happy,never give up the fight.