Hi there. I don't often post over here, but was searching post partum depression and came across your post. First thing I want to tell you is that this is not your fault, and you are not alone. I too suffer from post partum depression. In my search for information, I found out that it is very common, and fortunately, there is a lot of help out there for it. I also found out that if you are prone to depression (I suffered from mild depression/anxiety almost my whole life) you are far more likely to develop post partum depression. Great news though! There is help, and you don't have to feel or live this way. I believe you, like me, are a Canadian, correct? So what you need to do is make an appointment with your family Dr. or clinic. Let them know how you are feeling. I had a hard time with this as I was so embarrassed at first. I thought they would assume I wanted to hurt my child or something, when nothing could have been further from the truth. I received absolutely no negativity at all. In fact, it was the opposite. They reassured me that reaching out for help was the best thing I could do for myself, and therefor my child. My Dr. referred me to a physciatrist (covered by our medical) who specialized in post partum. I was put on medication that I responded to very well, and soon felt so much better. I still struggle and my son is now 20 months old. I continue to get help and am getting better. It can and usually does take time. But make that appointment, and just tell your Dr. No one deserved to feel this way, and you don't have to.
If you print off what you have written here and take it to your doctor i am sure they will be able to help you. And that why you don't need to worry about what to say as its written down, from there the doctor will ask a few questions and you will go from there. adgal is right this isn't your fault or something to be embarrassed about. I am glad your little girl is going well.
Thank you both. Its still very intimidating to bring it up to the doctor at the walk in clinic. (limited family doctors in my town)