what do i do

[uggghh]

i was just recently diagnosed bi polar by my psychiatrist...i took the mmpi test and it showed severe depression. since then i have been put on lamictal, i'm only on the starter kit and am up to 50mg, i have been on prozac for about 6 months and take 40mg once a day....i feel like i am dieing, literally...i have never been so down in my whole life, for no reason, nothing has happened to cause my depression, it just hit out of the blue and it is horrible, i'm physically hurting, i'm sick to my stomach all day and get sick everytime i eat, my head pounds all day long...its to the point i cry all the way to work because i can't handle it, i can't talk to people, i feel like i could stop talking all together..i am so down and sad i just don't know what to do anymore. i see my psychiatrist again in a couple weeks but i don't really no what he could say to help me at this point? what do y'all do when you're at your worst...anybody please..i really don't know how much longer this can go on....

[Lizz67]

This would be a good time to contact your doctor's office. I don't mean that sarcastically, I'm serious.  Your symptoms are very, very severe and obviously your meds haven't been effective (yet).
     You also should consider getting yourself to a hospital emergency room. They can direct you to more immediate care.
     Going to the hospital is pretty scary if you've never been there before (I don't know if you have), but it's a place where you can safely get your meds adjusted and focus on yourself and get work off your back, ect.
     Believe me I've been there (all summer).  I use therapy and meds together and things have gotten better for me since I've been on Prozac myself.  I know you said you can't afford your therapy, but a hospital social worker can probably help you find something you can afford right now.

Please get help from your doctor or an ER.  There is relief out there, but with meds you have to keep trying to find one that works for you.

Don't off yourself! - contact your doctor's office right away! Let them help you.

And keep posting on here - we've almost all been suicidal and people love to reach out.

[uggghh]

what do we do? when the meds aren't working, the therapy's not working, where do we turn from here? there has to be something...

[JennyKins7579]

I am so sorry you are feeling down, but I DO understand see I am feeling much the way you do. I stopped going to therapy when I changed jobs since I could no longer afford it. Now my life is in a HUGE downward spiral, my husband is considering ending our marriage, and this has pushed to the edge, trust me I have thought long and hard on if I should walk right off it. I'm torn, the only thing that is holding me up right now is my dad and prayer. Here if you wanna talk :)