why does my whole body shake?

[hunnybee90]

I've been stressing out way too much...I'm even feeling depressed..all i want to do is be by myself and not talk to anyone...I'm having some relationship problems with my boyfriend...we've been together for almost a year...The other day i caught him on porn, web caming with this chick and talking to her..i'm not sure what to think...it has got me to to the point where i'm depressed about it...i have not talked to him about it cuz that will just get him mad...and it's not good when he gets mad...cuz then it becomes violent...I don't have anyone to talk to about this...I moved so far away from home...I moved from Ky to Tx...I dont have any friends here..so it's been really stressful for me...and i'm trying to get use to the city life here..I can't talk to my friends from Ky as long as i want...he doesn't like it when i get on my facebook..he's always wondering what and who i'm talking to...I've already talked to him about hitting me...he only said he'll try not to...he said sometimes i deserve it...cuz of the things i do or say...but my friends say different they told me no girl deserves that..

so please anyone if you know anything please let me know....

[alvaa]

Keeping your feelings to yourself only makes it worse, but it does seem obvious that you cannot express things to him. He doesn't seem like a top quality person. It seems you could do better than him.

[hunnybee90]

Sometimes he just makes me feel like i'm just not good enough or pretty enough for him...i told him about my feelings but he sometimes don't understand me and he takes it the wrong way..so he gets really mad...So i just keep my feelings to myself cuz i can't talk to him without him getting really mad or tells me to stop feeling that way..

[hunnybee90]

so its still consider cheating if its a porno cuz i looked it up its call pornhub and theres a live chat web cam..he doesn't know that i know about it.

[alvaa]

Make friends here. Make friends where you can. You deserve better than this. If I had a gf and she caught me cheating on a webcam, I would expect her to beat me senseless. Men like that just erk me!

[hunnybee90]

i*

[hunnybee90]

but what should  do?

[alvaa]

Is the shaking due to nervousness and being afraid or from the depression. Having no friends or people to talk to in your situation can be very stressful and of course harmful from what you say.