Hello. My little Luna was diagnosed with Chronic Kidney Disease and Pancreatitis on January 4th, 2017. She is a 7 year old French bulldog. I am besides myself. Especially that she has only recently been diagnosed. The more research I have done show the signs have been here for years. I am not ready to give up on her but want to make sure I'm not keeping her around because I'm not ready. This is a shock as we have gone to 3 separate vets (due to moving), and not a single one thought to check her for this disease. We've always brought her records to the new vets and provided her history when we moved. Since the day we got her, she has always had a drinking problem guzzling water like she would never get it again and puking it up sometimes - we just thought it's because she'd drink a whole bowl at once which is a lot for her little frame. She has had constant bouts of incontinence off and on. She has been to the vet religiously somewhere between 4-8 times a year for shots, evaluations and for all of these reasons stated. Sadly not a single one advised there could be issues with her kidneys. It was not until recently she lost a significant amount of weight and would no longer eat her daily greenies that the vet checked her for this disease. Her blood was run and her BUN and Creatine levels were extremely high. The vet sent me home with her after fluids with special K/D diet and SubQ's. She ate it for a few days but then quit eating it altogether. At the same time she began getting horrible gas, her anal glands swelled, and she started dealing with diarrhea due to the change in food and possibly the disease. They got so bad that she had a rupture and the vet had to put her on antibiotics after cleaning her out. It was awful, I was terrified they'd make me put her down then. We reran her blood levels and she got worse from the week prior. The vet told me to check her in another week or two. Since this issue, she has been on daily SubQ fluids, an antibiotic for the gland issue, and as she quit eating the K/D food, I've prepared home cooked meals along with probiotics, vitamins, enzymes, omega 3's, and kidney gold support. I have been making home meals per a recipe book I purchased for dogs with illness. With my home food, she has solid poop and no gland issues. I also believe that's b/c I did a lot of research and I have provided her with additional enzymes and probiotics. The vet has not once told me about any of these things that have seemed to help my baby. They only sent me with antibiotics and SubQ's. I'm truthfully worried the antibiotics are hurting the good that she has left. She has kept her appetite and eats the meals I've provided and only puked a little holding most of it down. She has been pretty lethargic however and sleeps most of the days away. What is most concerning is this last day or so, she has eaten less, and when she is awake, she is barely able to keep her eyes open. She looks like she is falling asleep standing. It also takes her a minute to walk straight, she has a slight clumsy walk now. She still gives me lots of love and snuggles but she just can't seem to stay awake or stay asleep without eventually sitting up just to fall asleep standing. We've had her in bed every night since she was diagnosed. She often wakes just to sit and stare at nothing. I am very worried about her. Is she in pain? I want her to be peaceful and comfortable. I love her with all of my heart. I've never lost an animal or had to make a decision to put them to sleep and I'm not sure if there is ever a right time. If it says anything my cat is 20 yrs old and my other English Bulldog is 11. I am completely distraught and don't know what to do. I keep praying she will just fall asleep with me and go peacefully. I don't want to have to make the decision to end her life but I also don't want her to suffer. Any advice would be completely helpful. Thank you.