I'm so sorry to hear your friend is gone. Please don't feel guilty about her passing. You went above and beyond what many people are able to do so save her. When our dogs reach their very senior years,decisions about treating major medical problems become extremely difficult to make. Our bonds with long-lived pets prove nearly impossible to break when we are the ones who have to decide when and how to break them.
I didn't catch if your dog died on her own or if you euthanized, but if it was euthanasia, it was the right decision. This condition could not have been treated medically, and too many body processes were failing for her to have gone on much longer - with or without treatment. I honestly think the chemo would have killed her even if she made it through the surgery.
In these times of intense grief, I've found it's a bit easier to try to focus on all the good years that went before the end. After all, those are the most important times - not the ending. You are obviously a wonderful dog parent, and I hope in time you will be able to share your life with another very lucky dog. :-)
My thoughts echo those of Jaybay. Thirteen is a WONDERFUL age for a Golden, and even nicer was that although she declined quickly at the end, she was healthy for basically her entire life and able to enjoy it!
Goldens, as a whole, are one of the most cancer-prone breeds there are, and many of them are stricken down at very young ages, some as early as a year or two. You went to the wall for your girl, so you should feel absolutely not a shred of guilt. I would not have put her through the chemo treatments either, because while it might have bought her a few more months, they would have been months of feeling lousy most of the time and not quality months.
Keep her alive in your heart and remember all the many good times you had together. As heartbreaking as it is to lose them, it is offset by all the joy they give us while they are with us.
Thank you both for your kind thoughts and words.There was no choice to be made as I had to either have the operation done due to at least one bleeding tumor and low red blood counts with the risks involved and to consider the possible quality of life after or to do what I did (I can't bear to even use the word).She was my loving loyal companion and my baby.Our lives were devoted to each other.I just feel some guilt that I did not take her to Tuft's Univ. Veterinary Hospital,which is one of the best in the country,for another last opinion.She had to have the operation,I know that,but they could have done the operation and had a biopsy back in 2 days.There was some chance that they would be benign tumors.I will never know that.Either way,she had to have the risky procedures.Time will pass but my little Bailie and I will forever be linked as loyal loving companions.
Take care and keep up the good work!
PS: I am new on this board.Do you both have pets and what kind if so? All I can say is there is nothing quite like a dog,a Golden Retriever is a special dog!
Sorry to both of you.I'm a little slow right now.I read your bio's and saw your dog's pictures.
Wish you both the best!!
Bless your heart! Yes! We are all "critter lovers" here. I have two dogs along with a cockatiel and a quaker parrot. My husband and I agreed many years ago that two dogs are better than one. They entertain each other as well as both of us. Every dog we've owned has quickly understood that the birds are part of The Pack, so the birds are able to enjoy their days outside the cages. Honestly, it doesn't take much in the way of training to get the dogs to understand that the birds are off-limits.
You have nothing to be guilty about! You did every last little thing possible to save your dog, and ultimately it was her time to go. People who truly love their animals are very special. We know we have a limited amount of time with them, but still we persist in loving them and making them a huge part of our lives. THAT is something to be proud of.
Thank you Jaybay.Yes,I know the sad thing is our loved pets just don't live long enough for us.My wife has sacrificed because I did not like to leave home often without our girl so I did not go away very often.At this point in our lives it is sad to think she may be my last dog-something difficult to think about for someone who loves dogs so much.If ever anything changes I think I would consider a rescue Golden Retriever.Let's see what's in store down the road.Enjoy your "critters".