I know I have done the dumbest thing here and I'd rather get critized or be maked fun of because what I did and get a hopeful and chance of an answer that will maybe make me worry less than to hide my shame and make a pain that could've been treated untreated. Its because 5 weeks ago I felt like a heart attack like feeling that ended up being anxiety but during the whole week, I felt like not happy nor not sad but everything felt pointless. I was scared that I needed to commit suicide and I was afraid I might have to. Then I said that it doesn't make sense because if I felt the need I wouldn't think twice. So I wanted to know to test myself and to proof myself that I wasn't suicidal so I just said to myself like what if I choke and feel pain, would I have the guts to let go or just let myself pass out and maybe die? As soon as the pain started though, I did stop...The thing is, I squeezed like a muscle or vein part of my throat and it hurts now when I gulp, not trouble digesting food but just it hurts when like you gulp occsionally or touch it. I read about how it has to do with cancer or heart attack in the right area but I don't know if I read that cancer or heart attack in the right area causes you to feel pain or leave a lump like the jvd or having to jvd causes you to get like cancer or heart attack in the right area. It doesn't hurt when I breath or enough where it really hurts that makes go ouch just pain like. Will it ever go away or the chances of choking that hard. It wasn't hard where I couldn't eventually hold the pain anymore it was before that I let go. Now I am scared dumb and scared..it was just to see if I was suicidal but never thought of the pain, just thought I'd suffer from gaining my oxygen back. I might be scared I might die now or maybe because of me having anxiety as it is. The pain still goes after 2 days.
Thanks