Bulimia, i can't not eat :(

[theshycrier]

i am 14 and female and i am very thin, according to my friends. when i walk around during breaks in school or where ever i see all the girls and their flat stomachs and i envy them. last year in grade 8 i wanted to change all that.  i tried to stop eating, but i couldn't do it very well. i wouldn't eat breakfast, which was normal for me since i usually get up late and make it just in time for the bus. anyway, i wouldn't eat breakfast, and i tried not to eat supper. but i always did, and that made me angry at myself, so the next day i wuld try and not to eat again, and i would fail. then i started to not eat lunch after finally realising, the teachers don't give a rats a**. and that was fine for me, but at home it is always hard. all the temptatin of cookies and chips and other things, since my sister is the compleate opposite of thin. sometimes, if i succeeded in not eating much at home, the next morning at sc hool i would feel sick becos there was no food in my stomach. in the mornings i would take some pain killers, but they work with food, so they only made my stomach pains worse. at the end of the year the hme ec teacher was tyeaching about the food groups and she asked who ate breakfast that morning. they were not many hands raised. then she asked who ate lunch that day. at that moment i was so proud of myself for being the only one with my hand down. now its summer break and i hate myself again, my depression is worse and im cutting more than ever. i know no one is going to help me out with my question, but anyone who is like me, and knows they need help but don't want it. how do you make yourself not hungry? i'd love it if someone could help me out with this! so please, if you know a way to make urself not-hungry with out eating, i'll love you forever!


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[scarolinagrl]

it sounds more like anorexia or close to it being that you don't purge in some way.  I have been bulimic since I relapsed after having a baby.  I am sort of confused on where my eating disorder is at this point, either i eat everything, then throw up followed by laxatives, or I eat next to nothing.  I am in dbt for my bpd and ed, and have individual, they are wanting me to get up to 2000 calories a day, but i cannot eat a 400 calorie meal at one time and keep it down, i end throwing all or part of it up, will actually feel sick like I have to throw up if I dont purge, sort of stuck right now.  I am at a low weight, my mom and husband keep telling me I am way too skinny but it is very hard for me to see in the mirror.  I feel like I need to lose weight mentally, hard to get past that, plus being that I have been struggling so long, I physically cannot eat the normal amount of food they want me to without throwing up.  

[RacySlugController]

I am 23 and have been throwing up after i eat since i was 12. The girl you replied to is the voice of many girls. Where do all these girls come from? Why did I develop this out of all my choices? Why am i obsessed with food? I started to believe the mind damage was from television, so i stopped watching. But the controller and over eater in me still runs my life. It's like my stomach is the boss of my life. I want my mind to become stronger, so it can control the stomach. Can you help me? IF not what doctor could help me?

[RacySlugController]

I am 23 and have been throwing up after i eat since i was 12. The girl you replied to is the voice of many girls. Where do all these girls come from? Why did I develop this out of all my choices? Why am i obsessed with food? I started to believe the mind damage was from television, so i stopped watching. But the controller and over eater in me still runs my life. It's like my stomach is the boss of my life. I want my mind to become stronger, so it can control the stomach. Can you help me? IF not what doctor could help me?

[healthgal42]

hi i am 42 years old and i have lived what you are living with now. if you are in need of someone to talk to or help vent please contact me you can also find me on facebook but start here and contact me. i dont want to see you die or become any iller. i have had anorexia and bullemia for about 13 years and was living in hell. please contact me via a message and i would love to help you. i am not a dr but i have lived through what you are going through now and trust me you need to seek help and have a support team. good luck and i hope to hear back from you.. my name is lynn

i work with ed victims in a support line

[stephanie1o]

sounds like you are on the road to anorexia to help yourself control your hunger try a glass of milk but you must seek help as this could get out of control and be seriousley ill  you want a flat stomach so try tummy excersise and if you want to get the flat tum and excersice you will need the right foods so do some reasearch as you will be to tired to bother withought the right energy foods and starving will be a temporary help and you wont get knowhere with the flat tum good luck

[drray3001x]

Your problem is not that you get hungry, it is how you deal with it.  I suspect that may also be true of other feelings that you have/deal with.  Feelings are never the problem - how we deal with them are where the problems exist.  From your post it sounds as though you may have an eating disorder.  There is enough there to suggest that you should seek help ASAP.  I don't know if you can go to your parents and ask for help, or another outlet would be your school counselor or your pediatricican.  

You are not alone with these issues.  These kind of problems are increasingly common in adolescent females and can be helped wih the proper support and treatment if necessary.