Hello. 24 year old female, I have struggled with major depression for years and am a suicide attempt survivor. About a year and a half ago I fell
Into a deep depression and wasn't working or anything and dropped to 85lbs. Since then my eating habits have gotten so bad and erratic. I went off my medication (vybriid) a year ago and haven't went back on anything yet mostly because I can't even take a pill every day, secondly my behavioral health dept was closed here so my resources are slim. I have noticed myself studdering my words, forgetting names and words, and to take my medication and pretty much everything else. I can hardly make it to work every day, and my body constantly feels Ill. 6/7 days of the week I have pain or feel nauseated. I have zero energy, headaches, dizzy and fainting spells, my raynauds syndrom is worse than ever, horrible Painful pelvic pain/pms, horrible mood swings. I lay in bed most of The day and when I am able to eat it's usually junk food, or possibly a salad. Some times I can binge on an entire pizza to myself but it's rare. I have always been a picky eater and I have always been on the leaner side but in the past year and a half my eating habits have become so horrible I'm not sure what to do and when to be concerned. I guess I may be in denial of my health, but it's just SO hard to care. I don't know if it's my depression or something else, I feel so disconnected from my body it's hard for me to tell. . I've been to doctors for my weight and none seemed too concerned so neither was I. Lately I have been being more aware of what I have been eating to just see where I'm at and I realized I'm getting probably between 300-700 calories a day, and that I'm eating maybe one meal a day and not even having a single thought to eat more. I will admit my self esteem isn't that great, and I do get a little down on myself for a minute when I see the scale go up. But I don't calorie count or Activly not feed myself, have a goal weight or purge and I do not exercise whatsoever either. Food does not satisfy me anymore, and when I think about chewing it I almost always have to spit it out. I eat a very select few of foods and absolutely hate trying new things but I try when I can stomach it. I'm currently 94lbs/5'3 and lately I haven't ate much at all just because I'm not hungry. I do get some hungry growls occasionally but I don't physically feel hungry or have any desire to eat. I don't know if this is normal or if I should be concerned.