Eating patterns have changed

[natalieedear]

Since the start of 2009 my eating patterns have completly changed, most days all i will eat is a couple of biscuits and thats about it, but other days (not many of these days) i will feel like im eating for Britain and eat loads, my friends call me anorexic but i really don't think i am. I have never ate breakfast, but now i've stopped eating lunch too, this doesnt mean im anorexic does it? please help me xx

[Rach878]

Sweetie, i want you to listen to me ok....A mediatior might help you...but as far as seeing a doctor are there any free clinics near your house that you could get to? You don't have to go with a parent, and they might be able to help you more than a mediator. I would ask someone, a tearcher, anyone if you have a school counsler, a guidance consler. I'm sure you do.
How do you hurt yourself? And if your so depressed you can't eat... you really need someone to help you. I know you said your mom has a lot on her plate, but trust me, she'd want to help you.
I get that you dont' like your dad, adn i don't blame you, since he's calling you fat and everything, but i get the feeling there's something more to the reason you dislike him, that is contributing to your depression.

I have some numbers that i want you to call when you feel like hurting yourself, or your thinking about ending your life. They are free and anynomus.
Suicide prevention lines in the UK
1850 60 90 91
1850 60 90 90
8457 90 90 90
Suidice prevention lines in the US
[phone]
1800-252-8336
[phone]
[phone]
A website with more numbers for anywhere in any country is:
http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html
Please use them, and let me know how your doing.

[natalieedear]

Talking to my teacher really didn't help, she didnt seem to understand atall she just watched me cry, she even made me talk to her in the middle of the school corridoor which was really awkward as everyone that walked past could see me crying and i felt as though i couldn't speak to her about what i wanted as any of the kids passing by could hear. Rach, i think that is the reason i don't feel like eating. Im depressed constantly because of mainly what my dad has done, and during the times when i used to speak to my dad he called me fat and told me i needed to go to the gym all the time. Which really knocked my confidence even more and it didnt help that my family ( on myu dads side) called me fat all the time too, i mean they even bought me a 'shock yourself thin' chocolate box for chirstams, which basically you put you chocolate in there and then everytime you try to get it out it electricutes you. That didnt really help matters.

Rachael, my dad has no clue i havent spoke to him for nearly half a year ( so somebody is coming to see me on tuesday about it ) and my mum, well she;s going through enough as it is at the moment, so i just stay upstairs in my dark room most nights and then thats when i will hurt. I would speak to a councellor in school but the problem is i don't actually think my school has one :/ i have considered seeing a doctor one of the nights when my mum is at work but then remembered you have to go with a parent to see a doctor. So that wouldn't really help.Im not sure if you know anything about mediators. but if i told them about what im doing to myself, do you reckon they would be able to help me? Im really not sure. The thing is there is a girl in my year, who is just like me, she hurts herself, she cries most days and her parents are going through a divorce, but the thing is she is alot more popular than me, so whenever she is upset ( which is most days just like me) the teachers take alot of notice to her as she is  always surrounded by the majority of people in my classes. Im really thankful for all your help and advice and i have tried to stop being the way i am but it really doesnt work. I still manage to hurt myself and sit in a depression by myself thinking of various ways to end it all. I know its so silly because im pretty young but i just don't seem to enjoy anything atall, the silliest things wind me up. xx

[Rach878]

Hello. I would love to talk more with you if you would like to pm me. Depression is something that is ongoing. Infact it could be one of the reasons you don't feel like eating. And hurting yourself is  a serious issue. Do you parents/teachers know anything that is going on? I can understand why your doing the things that your doing, but i agree with Zoelula. What you may benifit from most is talking with your school consler, about helping you find a theripist, or someone that you can talk to in person. Everyone here is happy to help and support you, but what your going to really need is to sit face to face with someone adn really talk aobut why your depressed, and not eating, adn perticipating in self harm, and know is the best time, before it gets out of hand,adn starts to run your life. Trust me, because i did just that. I didn't listen to people around me telling me i needed help, and all the things that your doing right know took ahold of me for four years. I dont' want you four years from know to look back and say where did my life go.

[Zoelula]

Hi natalie

Good to hear from you, I was worried about you because the thread kind of went off a bit. There is a forum on here for Depression you might want to check out. You didn't say if you get any help with your depression. I'm guessing not because you said you recently chatted with a teacher and it didn't really help. Teachers might be understanding and caring but they don't necessarily have any experience with Depression. Depression isn't the same as just feeling down. It is a real illness just like the flu or diabetes. And just like those diseases you need appropriate treatment. If you are hurting yourself than you need help, and if you think you might be depressed than you should see a Counselor. Ask at school for a referall to a Counselor or Therapist. They may want you to start with the school counselor but usually that person isn't a mental health professional, though some of them do have experience and understanding of some emotional issues. But chances are that person will talk to you for awhile and then refer you to someone more qualified. It sounds like you really need support for what you are going through.

[natalieedear]

Thank you very much for all your comments its really helped me, i've lost quite a bit of weight recently but nothing ridiculous. Could anybody please help me find a way to write about depression please? i dont know how to sign up to the depression bit? im more considered about that than i am my weight, my weight is nothing to major at the moment i just really didn't want it to increase into anything more. Thank you very much for all your support guys, it has really helped, if anybody could chat to me about depression that would really help, i have quite alot on that subject, but i recently chatted with a school teacher because i believed it would help. but it really hasnt it just made me worse and continue to hurt myself xx

[nart]

i havent gotten any up dates form natalie..........im sorry its taking me so long to get my pics on the computer...........i dont know much about computer and how to down lode pics....but  i have  been haveing some fun taking the pics..i ran 30 mins today and walked 50 mins....running is way different than walking ..i dont feel i get a good workout really from walking ..but with running you work you body so hard you feel feel a big difference on working out ......