Hi pink. Gosh, eating disorders are so very hard to deal with. We can't just give up food, right? And stopping ourselves from having an unrealistic image of our body in our mind is hard to do without professional help. I understand finances and hope you get into a situation in which you can tackle this with the psychological help that will really make this easier to overcome.
One hallmark of eating disorders is very critical thinking of one's self. Your internal thoughts are typically negative when you think about what you look like, who you are, what you can't control, etc. You have to find a way to change that dialogue. Positive affirmations sound corny but they can work. Go to thoughts that you say in your head over and over when the bad thoughts start coming in.
You have to start Mindful living. That means purposely thinking and doing things differently than you have been. Make a contract with yourself. What you will eat (smaller portions if you binge, non sugary foods aren't an option but more healthy things like a bowl of fruit are, keep a food journal and monitor it, have a total amount you will exercise, no more or less set up each day, etc.), exercise, handle the job of nourishing yourself properly will be well thought out.
** DO NOT WEIGH YOURSELF. Get rid of your scale sweetie. Just get rid of it. May seem hard but you need to do it.
Know your triggers (journaling helps) and avoid. Distraction helps (add more of this to your life). Support is key--- we're here for you to talk! Invite others to join this site, we'll get discussion going! You are NOT alone!
Another thing to help is to write down situations that lead to your purging. Then take some time to think about each one and write down solutions or other things you can do besides purging next time in that situation.
And I sort of covered this but plan plan plan. Plan out your meals into three meals, three snacks. Eat that.
Let me know what you think sweetie!
I was wondering how you are doing sweetie.
Hi pink. Eating disorders are so complex. I really keep those who suffer this in my heart because I know how hard it is. Have you been able to talk to anyone about it or work on this at all? I think summer (if you are in the US) is one of the hardest times.
Hi Pink! How are you my friend? How are things going?
Hi specialmom! I am doing quite well. I don't purge as much and you know what, ever since you told me to get rid of the scale, I haven't weighed myself as much. I thought if I didn't know how much I weigh (although I can feel that I did/do gain weight), it would somehow keep me from purging. It somehow worked for me. Sometimes I am tempted but I manage to fight it off so I felt successful when I do.
The problem I have now is my acid reflux (GERD/GORD). My GI doctor has prescribed Nexium (40g) daily. I have taken it for a month now and it has calmed down my symptoms by at least 70%. He says that it is good news, but it actually takes at least 2 months of continuous medication to feel relieve or fully eradicate the symptoms. So for now, I am on my 2nd month and I am hoping that I will be much better in a month.
I am so sorry for responding so late. I got quite busy at work and didn't have time to check the website. How's things going with you? I hope you and your family are alright.