when i eat i feel like throwing up

[JianaValrial]

i'm a 14 year old girl who struggles with eating. i have not consistently eaten breakfast/lunch/dinner for 3 years now. this morning i tried to eat but gagged and almost threw up. what i ate was a small block of cheese, i couldn't swallow it.  is this due to not eating, allergy to dairy, or something else?

[specialmom]

I'm wondering how you are doing.

[specialmom]

So, you posted this on the eating disorders forum.  How is it going? Things any better?  Are you wanting to eat but can't? Are you wanting to be thin? Some people are not morning eaters.  I'm not, for example.  I try but don't really have an appetite then. But then I have an early lunch. Are you underweight?

[JianaValrial]

its been a few years and i am indeed suffering from anerexia, probably due to the fact that im a trans male and have severe body disphoria. i am now 16 and have not reached over 100 pounds. im also using drugs and that is getting even worse, making my food intake even less. idk where to go from here but i need help.

[Paxiled]

An allergy problem or lactose intolerance wouldn't happen while you were eating.  It would happen after you ate it, and would have effects like a stuffy nose and the like. It also causes inflammation, but you don't notice that until you get older, so it's a hidden problem of eating dairy products.  Also, cheese is cultured, and that makes it easier to handle than, say, milk.  I think your problem might be a body image problem.  Is it?  You may be basically forcing yourself to reject food because you want to be thin.  This is a common problem with girls your age.  I'd think you might want to try therapy and see if you can get to the bottom of this.  At your age, regular eating habits pretty much don't exist, and that's bad because you're body and brain are still developing and you need to eat what's good for you in appropriate amounts to avoid long-term problems.  So get some help soon.  Peace.

[JianaValrial]

hey its been like two years. im in therapy and am currently suffering from drug use and an anerexia. i was going through my emails and realized this is when it started to get very bad, and has contined to get worse from there. i dont know where to go from there and how to get better. im now 16 and in the last two years i havent passed 100 pounds, something im quite proud of but for my height is not healthy. help.